anale
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I am so glad I found this forum.
It is hard to introduce myself though...
I have been battling depression and SA for a while now.
SA is sort of new just because no one had ever named it but I realise I've had it for some time.
I am from overseas and English is not my first language therefore meeting strangers here makes me even more anxious as I always feel they won't understand me and think I am stupid. Actually my English is quite ok, I've got a master degree from an Australian uni, i've got an accent but nothing dramatic, so yes i know that my fears are exaggerated but I still can't control my anxiety which makes my life really lonely. I live with my partner who is great but can't really understand my SA as he sees nothing worng with my accent, the way I look, etc...
With closer friends I can be fun, I can crack a joke, but with strangers, especially work related, I always make a complete fool of myself.
I work as a temp and it makes my life worse as I am always moving and having to meet new people. I can only work in really boring jobs doing admin work although I am much more qualified than that, but whenever i score an interview i come across as someone with zero confidence and it never goes beyond this stage.
Today I missed work as I feel I can never go back after last friday when i made so many mistakes due to being in direct contact with the big boss...
anyway, i feel helpless and alone. i hope i can turn things around and look forward to a brighter future but it all seems so hard at the moment. thanks for reading my post. Anale
It is hard to introduce myself though...
I have been battling depression and SA for a while now.
SA is sort of new just because no one had ever named it but I realise I've had it for some time.
I am from overseas and English is not my first language therefore meeting strangers here makes me even more anxious as I always feel they won't understand me and think I am stupid. Actually my English is quite ok, I've got a master degree from an Australian uni, i've got an accent but nothing dramatic, so yes i know that my fears are exaggerated but I still can't control my anxiety which makes my life really lonely. I live with my partner who is great but can't really understand my SA as he sees nothing worng with my accent, the way I look, etc...
With closer friends I can be fun, I can crack a joke, but with strangers, especially work related, I always make a complete fool of myself.
I work as a temp and it makes my life worse as I am always moving and having to meet new people. I can only work in really boring jobs doing admin work although I am much more qualified than that, but whenever i score an interview i come across as someone with zero confidence and it never goes beyond this stage.
Today I missed work as I feel I can never go back after last friday when i made so many mistakes due to being in direct contact with the big boss...
anyway, i feel helpless and alone. i hope i can turn things around and look forward to a brighter future but it all seems so hard at the moment. thanks for reading my post. Anale
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