Fleetingmoment
New member
Hi Everyone my names Paul
Well ive never even admitted I have SP to anyone before but im sure they have guessed it,
Im 30 and have had my life pretty much ruined since the age of 16.
My early years were very good to be honest, sure my Mum was protective and my Dad was kinda emotionally draining but it didnt seem to affect me much.
I was always nervous in school up until about the age of 13 when I fell into the "popular" group at school and I may even have had the arrogance to call myself good looking during my remaining years at school. Those 3 years were wonderful where I experienced great times.
However that all changed when I took a holiday to America, Boston. I fell ill with some sort of food poisoning/virus and wouldnt wish my experience on my worst enemy, what with trying to do the holiday thing and have fun feeling so bad in restaurants etc.
When I got home, the next day I woke up my nightmare started, I felt sick at the mere thought of facing certain situations, "what if's" plagued me everywhere I went, and got progressively worse through the years and avoidance set in.
For a few years I thought there was something physically wrong with me, but eventually the penny dropped and I realised it was the fear, but couldnt do anything about it.
Now in a situation im sure many others are in, I avoid almost every single invitation to go anywhere and am pretty much alone at my own choice.
Frustratingly I know I have much to give and could have a good life had I never gone to America! or maybe this would have happened anyway...
Will be nice to hear other peoples stories, and can post my pic as soon as I think noone from my area will find me out, hehe "what ifs what ifs"
Well ive never even admitted I have SP to anyone before but im sure they have guessed it,
Im 30 and have had my life pretty much ruined since the age of 16.
My early years were very good to be honest, sure my Mum was protective and my Dad was kinda emotionally draining but it didnt seem to affect me much.
I was always nervous in school up until about the age of 13 when I fell into the "popular" group at school and I may even have had the arrogance to call myself good looking during my remaining years at school. Those 3 years were wonderful where I experienced great times.
However that all changed when I took a holiday to America, Boston. I fell ill with some sort of food poisoning/virus and wouldnt wish my experience on my worst enemy, what with trying to do the holiday thing and have fun feeling so bad in restaurants etc.
When I got home, the next day I woke up my nightmare started, I felt sick at the mere thought of facing certain situations, "what if's" plagued me everywhere I went, and got progressively worse through the years and avoidance set in.
For a few years I thought there was something physically wrong with me, but eventually the penny dropped and I realised it was the fear, but couldnt do anything about it.
Now in a situation im sure many others are in, I avoid almost every single invitation to go anywhere and am pretty much alone at my own choice.
Frustratingly I know I have much to give and could have a good life had I never gone to America! or maybe this would have happened anyway...
Will be nice to hear other peoples stories, and can post my pic as soon as I think noone from my area will find me out, hehe "what ifs what ifs"
