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[UnhappyGuy]

uhh guess I just wanna say hi, tell you about myself a bit. I suffer from SA.. and have done for a long time, but it's only recently been diagnosed... Due to my ignorant mother. I've been staying indoors for years... I mean not all the time, but 90% of the time I would stay in, watching t.v. or whatever, all because I'm too scared to face the outside world. Apparently, my deluded mum thought this was normal in a teenager. I lost my friends, and the friends I did have, didn't respect me because I wouldn't go out with them. I got very thin, looked unhealthy.

Then I finally realised I needed to get help, so I saw a counsellor at a place designed specifically for adolecents mental health. They made arrangments for me to change schools... To one with 10 people (at most) per class. I could never in my wildest dreams imagining changing schools, but the medication must've helped a lot.

Then that school ended, I got my gcse results that i needed (which were good considering I lost out on months of school). But I couldn't face college... So now i'm stuck, indoors... no college... no job... no going out... lost all my friends from my old school... and the one i've got, I can't face seeing.

I'm seeing someone who does C.B.T (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) but I only see him once a week. I'm supposed to be doing excercises (by that, I mean tasks, to help me get better... Like going out for a 10 minute walk 3 times a day).. but i cant face them.

Anyway... Thats me for now, Sorry if it's a long read. Tell me some of your stories!

 

[Tiptoe]

Hi UnhappyGuy

Just wanted to say Hi and welcome (although I am new here too). You know, you have much to feel really positive about. You have been diagnosed and have a professional therapist who will hopefully help you to beat SA. It is early days in your therapy so don't expect miracles at first, especially with the tasks - take it really slowly and tell him when you can't do something, it is not easy to do things way out of your comfort zone.

I can understand your anger about spending all that time at home, and your Mum not realising something was wrong. But perhaps it's not really her fault she didn't know? I won't tell you how many years (decades) it was before I realised that the collection of symptoms I had equalled something with a name (SA). Families don't like to think there is "something wrong", they prefer to gloss over, ignore, do anything but face up it - not all people are like that, but many are, especially mothers.

I think you are lucky to find out so young and be able to do something about it. You should also be proud that you recognised something was wrong and reached out. Things are really going to get better for you now and you will be able to get on with the life you should be living.

Good luck with the therapy, keep posting, there are many people here to help and support you. Be positive about your future. Take care

Tiptoe.