KillerQueen
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Hello! 
I've just joined this forum and I amen't entirely sure if I'm doing this right...
Anyway. I'm a young lass of 14 and facing a slight dilemma. I recently managed to find myself a part-time job waitressing. However, it wasn't until I started that I realised just how stressful the whole affair was going to be for me! I wasn't aware that I had Social Anxiety, although for a very long time I've experienced a variety of different problems. I've always found social situations very stressful and been a very anxious, worrisome kid etc., and roughly two years ago I became so anxious that I was finding it greatly difficult to eat and I developed Emetophobia (which I still have, only perhaps not to such an extreme as now I am eating regularly). Recently though, my self-esteem has plummeted to rock bottom and coping with this job has become damn near impossible. It isn't exactly the world's most challenging work, but I'm unable to cope with it because I'm constantly worrying about messing things up which affects my performance, the lightest bit of criticism crushes me entirely and sticks in my mind for days, I find it almost impossible to speak to the staff that work there let alone deal with the customers and my boss terrifies the living daylights out of me. The moment he appears I'm left thinking, "Oh god, he's going to see me screw up." Basically, it's one of the most terrifying experiences for me that I can imagine right now.
The thing is, I've spoken to a doctor recently who told me I had SA and am going back next week and will be put on a waiting list for CBT. My mum spoke to my boss when I went to work (I could hardly talk at the time, considering I was ready to upchuck my guts at any given moment.) He had a word with me and said that he would put me on cutlery and not to worry. The thing is that I'm still finding it a very major stress that is making me physically unwell too. I appreciate that he's gone out of his way to help me but I would really like to quit. The truth of it is that I'm just not ready for a job. I can't cope with it yet. Probably my age has a lot to do with it but definitely this SA has been making me feel utterly miserable for a good long time and has now been amplified by being thrust into a situation well outside of my comfort zone!
The problem in quitting is that I find it impossible to speak to my boss.
Or anyone else. I have no idea what I should do now.
Oh dear I'm very sorry for rambling on and on here... I don't think any of it will make much sense... if anyone read this far you're a saint! I hope it doesn't seem too trivial a problem...
I've just joined this forum and I amen't entirely sure if I'm doing this right... Anyway. I'm a young lass of 14 and facing a slight dilemma. I recently managed to find myself a part-time job waitressing. However, it wasn't until I started that I realised just how stressful the whole affair was going to be for me! I wasn't aware that I had Social Anxiety, although for a very long time I've experienced a variety of different problems. I've always found social situations very stressful and been a very anxious, worrisome kid etc., and roughly two years ago I became so anxious that I was finding it greatly difficult to eat and I developed Emetophobia (which I still have, only perhaps not to such an extreme as now I am eating regularly). Recently though, my self-esteem has plummeted to rock bottom and coping with this job has become damn near impossible. It isn't exactly the world's most challenging work, but I'm unable to cope with it because I'm constantly worrying about messing things up which affects my performance, the lightest bit of criticism crushes me entirely and sticks in my mind for days, I find it almost impossible to speak to the staff that work there let alone deal with the customers and my boss terrifies the living daylights out of me. The moment he appears I'm left thinking, "Oh god, he's going to see me screw up." Basically, it's one of the most terrifying experiences for me that I can imagine right now.
The thing is, I've spoken to a doctor recently who told me I had SA and am going back next week and will be put on a waiting list for CBT. My mum spoke to my boss when I went to work (I could hardly talk at the time, considering I was ready to upchuck my guts at any given moment.) He had a word with me and said that he would put me on cutlery and not to worry. The thing is that I'm still finding it a very major stress that is making me physically unwell too. I appreciate that he's gone out of his way to help me but I would really like to quit. The truth of it is that I'm just not ready for a job. I can't cope with it yet. Probably my age has a lot to do with it but definitely this SA has been making me feel utterly miserable for a good long time and has now been amplified by being thrust into a situation well outside of my comfort zone!
The problem in quitting is that I find it impossible to speak to my boss.
Or anyone else. I have no idea what I should do now.
Oh dear I'm very sorry for rambling on and on here... I don't think any of it will make much sense... if anyone read this far you're a saint! I hope it doesn't seem too trivial a problem...
