hi i have this recurring thought that im a pedophile...ive never molested children or wanted too…. yet i fear that i am because the thought has been something that comes to mind sporadically… i saw a picture of 2 boys and found to myself that they were attractive… but they werent that young like 13/14…. i dont have innapropriate desires and i really dont want to be a pervert…. but for some reason i just think i am or will be… i find girls my age attractive but at times i find boys good looking too…. even if logically i think something there is always an underlying feeling in me that there is something wrong with me… i find that when i look at children im not attracted but can find 13-15 good looking.... i dont get aroused which pedos do and i deeply dont want to be one but i have doubts about myself.... also when i research pedophiles to see if i am one i constantly see mention of child porn and i had the thought to look at it to see if im attracted to it which really scared me.... i have never wanted to watch it and have never but the idea to even check to see if it turned me on scared me.... and when the thought of being a pedophile subsides temporarily i get an overall thought that i will still be a pervert in someway. i also sometimes dont know if i can tell the difference between sexual arousal and anxiety.... and to top it all i hate the idea that i could have ocd and be a pedophile.... or that my lack of romantic relationships with ppl my age will cause me to become one... HELP thanks
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tailwagger
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Can you go to counselling? This could be a result of problems in other areas of your life. Try looking it up on the internet and see if you relate to any of the reasons why or characteristics of sexually sick people. It is not natural, and before it gets worse I would get some help. Also most people are not religious or spiritual these days but if you are, take some time to talk to your higher power about it in mediation by yourself. This can be revealing and sometimes we have the answers within.
Lowlight
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If I were you I would go to a mental health professional and talk it out. There is this type of OCD called Pure O. This site is has a good definition for it that might apply to you.
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-lonestar-
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many times no matter what your sexual orientation you may find members of the opposite sex attractive, does not mean you are bisexual unless it's always there. Anxiety can play with your mind and distort thoughts, so seek help if you feel it's beyond your control, I used to have OCD now it's mostly when I am depressed that I feel I might lose my sanity but I never go as far as acting out horrible thoughts, but that's how OCD is.