ma31
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When I was really little I remember making a certain noise with my throat as a habit and becoming obsessed with it (it shounded like a gulp)
I remember blinking really hard with both eyes as a twitch
When I was at primary school I remember not wanting to step on the lines
When I was at High school I remember switching the lights on and off repeatedly
I also remember fearing that Mum and Dad would die unless I did certain rituals
It seems to have gotten harder and harder though, the more I don’t want to think about bad things, the more I cant stop and then I feel that because I thought about it and felt a certain way when I did that I will cause it to happen
Now, almost all of my superstitions relate to the love of my life, John. I am so scared that something will happen to him (he will get sick)/ and as a result I feel like I will cause it to happen. I get this feeling in my chest and I feel like there is something negative or magical there that can cause things to happen and when I am constantly thinking don’t get sick, sometimes the feeling is more that he will and then I get a strong feeling in my chest and think that it is going to happen. I can then spend ages trying to get that same feeling when I think that he wont get it and I end up getting to a point where I just cant get that feeling again and then I think that it will happen
We are due to get married next year and have just booked our venue, but I got a negative feeling before we booked it and now I feel like he will get sick if we get married there. I am wanting to cancel the venue but it really is the prettiest venue we have been to and I also am too embarrassed to do so.
I remember blinking really hard with both eyes as a twitch
When I was at primary school I remember not wanting to step on the lines
When I was at High school I remember switching the lights on and off repeatedly
I also remember fearing that Mum and Dad would die unless I did certain rituals
It seems to have gotten harder and harder though, the more I don’t want to think about bad things, the more I cant stop and then I feel that because I thought about it and felt a certain way when I did that I will cause it to happen
Now, almost all of my superstitions relate to the love of my life, John. I am so scared that something will happen to him (he will get sick)/ and as a result I feel like I will cause it to happen. I get this feeling in my chest and I feel like there is something negative or magical there that can cause things to happen and when I am constantly thinking don’t get sick, sometimes the feeling is more that he will and then I get a strong feeling in my chest and think that it is going to happen. I can then spend ages trying to get that same feeling when I think that he wont get it and I end up getting to a point where I just cant get that feeling again and then I think that it will happen
We are due to get married next year and have just booked our venue, but I got a negative feeling before we booked it and now I feel like he will get sick if we get married there. I am wanting to cancel the venue but it really is the prettiest venue we have been to and I also am too embarrassed to do so.
