Help?

[go-go-ghost-ship]

I wanna shut myself away. I'm tired of having to deal with everything. I'm failing math and history. People are mean to me. Teachers and students alike make fun of me for being so shy. I'm scared to death of accidentally offending someone or appearing stupid. Before going outside, even just to take the trash out, I have to make sure there aren't any minor problems with my appearance- my jeans aren't too tight, my hair doesn't stick up, etc- because I can feel people's eyes on me. Even though I know it's silly to think people are watching me, I can't help it.
The thing is, I'm still a teen, and I live with my psycho mother and my not-very-understanding-but-well-meaning dad. He's always at work, so she's my only option for homeschooling, but I can't stand having to deal with her. She screams at me for every little mistake, even silly things like using obscure/long/formal words or expressing dissent for a song on the radio.
I can't deal with it any more. I just can't. You guys are my only hope, but I'm not sure what that means. You can't fix me or my surroundings, so I don't know why I bother telling you this. I guess I want to vent, or for someone to say "it'll be okay". But it's all useless...

 

[Nathália]

Aw, schooling especially grade school is difficult because many people are still very immature; it's Hades. It's going to take a lot to push through, try talking to someone at school and maybe they can help your situation. Hang in there, even though you feel like you can't push no more use the little strength you have. Try to get help on something if you feel it's a pain and it's stressing you. Plus don't mind people at school even though it's hard not to because you're in the midst and have to walk around them a lot. They're not important in anyway.

 

[Valhalla]

Go and speak to your counselor, but first talk to your father about how you feel. It should be possible for you to go and study somewhere else, in a room by yourself.

If people are mean to you, then it's not just in your head. It's a problem your school must do something about. Make sure you bring up the subject, so it doesn't go out of control and your grades will suffer.

Have something to read or do when you're not being in the classrooms, it might relieve you for at least a moment about being observed.

 

[DragonFlight777]

Does your school have a conselor? If so, go and talk to him/her; they might jst know how to help you and teach you how to help yourelf. Id not, I suggest buying a self-help book on social anxiety, there's a lot of valable information you can find in there. If you need to talk, yo can shoot a PM and when I'll have some time I'll answer. Good luck!