Help please :(

[MajorFailure93]

Hi I'm new to the forum and before I explain my problems I'd like to point out that my grammar is shocking so bare with me lol

I have ADHD,Tourette's,agoraphobia,o.c.d.,o.d.d so yeah quite a lot

I recently turned 20 and I'm just looking for advice really

When I was 15 my life changed I got agoraphobia(I still don't know how) and every time I went to school I had panic attacks and I had to run home(I'm a coward I know) and I didn't know how to deal with it and as a result I dropped out of school and lost contact with my friends and I was housebound until I was 17

When I was 17 I bit the bullet and forced myself to go out and I started visiting my cousins and I just sort of Tried to get it over as quickly as possible and I was really nervous although once I was at my cousins I was fine. It was just the build up to going out and travelling to my cousins which made me a nervous wreck

But as I thought I was making progress in life it turned upside down again as a month before I was 18 my mum died and she was the rock in my life and I just didn't know how to deal with it and I still struggle to this day and after she died I just felt it was my responsibility to look after my unwell younger brother so I put of going to college for now and looked after him

I recently turned 20 and I can now go out without feeling really nervous although I get nervous around people and I have no idea as to what I can do with myself as I have no qualifications and college now costs if your over 19 and secondly I think you need qualifications to even get on most courses but I'm really determined to get qualifications of some sort but I have no idea where to get them or anything everyday I worry about my future and I beat myself(not literally) about missing out on my gcses even though it was out of my control. I really don't want to be a failure in life for the next 10 or so years but its so hard to rebuild your life if you don't know who to talk to or where to go so yeah I'm wondering if any of you guys/girls know what options there are for me if there is any

Again I apologise for my grammar and I also typed this on a iPad so I'm sorry if the spelling is wrong
Thanks

 

[xfactishappy]

Your grammar is pretty comprehendible, so stop apologising on that part.

Secondly, i could've not put it into words as finely as you did. Mate, we are like twins in this phobic world or something alike i guess... lol. I share the exact same condition as yours, i couldn't bear to go to school so i stayed at home for 4 years without continuing any formal education. But now I am 19 and somewhat concerned about my future career path [should it exist]; the thing is I still remember my dark blue days of agony and pitiful misery, and the promise i made to myself that I will never ever have a second target in my life other than feeling joy in the now. I still do it after years and I am [quite] better now.

If a step could be taken for the betterment of your life, do it now instead of worrying, or if nothing could be done, worrying wouldn't sooth it anyway.

In other words, try to chill out for sake of chilling out [don't know how you'd start]; but positive thinking does make things bit better.

 

[MajorFailure93]

I found a place called learndirect which apparently offer qualifications so hopefully they can help me knowing my luck though I probly won't fit certain criteria or something