Hi, I was told about this website by someone on another website. Looks like a great place. Sorry if this is in the wrong forum. Here it goes.
Hi everyone. I'm new here as you can tell and this looks like a great place. The main reason I created this topic is to let my emotions out. I've been suffering from panic attackspanic attacks for nearly 4 years now, and I am an agoraphobicagoraphobic, and both have gotten a lot worse over the past year. Especially this last week. I just feel that I've lost almost complete control over my brain. I know they say it's impossible to go crazy or die from a panic attack, but I just cannot get myself to believe it for some reason. I think about the craziest things that I think no one else think about, and it scares the hell outta me.
I have no friends, no life, barely anything anymore. My grandparents are my biggest supporters, but as much as they try to help me, they just do not understand what I have to go through. I cry as I write this because it's just so hard. I want to have a life, I want to have friends, I want to have a job and do what I want when I want. I can barely go outside my front door. I don't even feel safe in my own house anymore. That's how bad the panic has gotten. This past week I've been having some unbelievably crazy thoughts and it has made me worry all day with some panic attacks. When a panic attack is near, I fear that I will go insane or maybe even die. When I start feeling bad, I end up calling a family member to try and distract myself. It has been difficult, but it has helped.
I'm scheduled to go to the hospital near my house on May 4th for a mental evaluationmental evaluation. I'm scared to death. I have no idea how I'm going to get there without freaking out and when I do get there, what exactly is going to happen. It scared me bad. I know this was a bit long, but I want to thank those of you who took the time to read it.
Hi everyone. I'm new here as you can tell and this looks like a great place. The main reason I created this topic is to let my emotions out. I've been suffering from panic attackspanic attacks for nearly 4 years now, and I am an agoraphobicagoraphobic, and both have gotten a lot worse over the past year. Especially this last week. I just feel that I've lost almost complete control over my brain. I know they say it's impossible to go crazy or die from a panic attack, but I just cannot get myself to believe it for some reason. I think about the craziest things that I think no one else think about, and it scares the hell outta me.
I have no friends, no life, barely anything anymore. My grandparents are my biggest supporters, but as much as they try to help me, they just do not understand what I have to go through. I cry as I write this because it's just so hard. I want to have a life, I want to have friends, I want to have a job and do what I want when I want. I can barely go outside my front door. I don't even feel safe in my own house anymore. That's how bad the panic has gotten. This past week I've been having some unbelievably crazy thoughts and it has made me worry all day with some panic attacks. When a panic attack is near, I fear that I will go insane or maybe even die. When I start feeling bad, I end up calling a family member to try and distract myself. It has been difficult, but it has helped.
I'm scheduled to go to the hospital near my house on May 4th for a mental evaluationmental evaluation. I'm scared to death. I have no idea how I'm going to get there without freaking out and when I do get there, what exactly is going to happen. It scared me bad. I know this was a bit long, but I want to thank those of you who took the time to read it.
