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[raincloud]

hi.

OK, so I think I have social anxiety disorder. I've always been on again off again depressed and am insecure...I had a bad childhood an all that, never really talk to people about it. I always worry about people not liking me, and am afraid to be myself. Then I become unhappy about it. On the surface, it appears that I am doing well, but deep down I am insecure and sad and hate myself. I read into everything people do and always infer the worst. I really hate feeling this way because I know that I shouldn't..

Anyway, I've never wanted to seek treatment because I don't want to be put on meds and have bad side effects and am embarrassed to go to anyone and admit there is something wrong with me. I don't feel bad all of the time.

Today I made an appointment with my doctor to get a referral to a psychologist, however, because my anxiety and depression have been unbearable lately.

I've just been doing research on social anxiety and found this site. Hope I can find some helpful information here and talk with others who also feel this way..

 

[ghest_3]

Hi raincloud

I can relate to what you are saying. I am sorry to hear you had a sad childhood. They way you dismiss this part of your life would suggest that there is something more to it than you want to talk about. Maybe this will help though. This board is a great place to talk to people who understand how you are feeling as we all feel the same as you do, and everyone has their anonymity. You can leave at any time you want.

i know what you mean about being happy on the surface, but insecure and unhappy deep down. This is probably the worse way to be though, as it makes it very difficult for people to help us.

Well done for making the step to see your doctor/ psychologist. They are great people to talk to about these problems. They listen. which is more than can be said for most of society.

Feel free to PM me