Vulpes
New member
Hello! I'm new, and I am very happy to have found a forum like this!
I have been shy my whole life but since the age of fourteen I have become progressivley more and more reclusive and anxious in social situations. This was assuaged somewhat in my last two years of high school because I attended a small "special" all-girl's school for students who did not fit into mainstream schooling for whatever reason (bullying, truancy, etc.), so there was greater tolerance for "odd" behaviour. They let me stay in the classroom during breaks and allowed me to skip unnecessary group therapy-style classes where socialising was expected, which, while doing no favours to my social skills, basically limited my exposure enough to lower my anxiety levels and enable me to get to school and complete more work. But now high school is over; I am nineteen and I am unemployed and I have no friends; I cannot make eye-contact or initiate conversations; I can't even go into a supermarket or walk down the street on my own, and when I enter a room I always look so odd because I practically press my chin to my chest to stare at the floor. It's embarrassing, but I can't seem to stop it right now. I have applied to study music at university next year, and while I am quite terrified at the prospect of being in such a social environment I am also somehow looking forward to the challenge of it (although that might change as the starting date draws closer...!
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Well, I'm sorry to have waffled on so much; I know it's not very interesting. But this looks to be a really great forum (though I am quite nervous about posting for the first time! I'm a bit of a wimp!)
All the best,
Vulpes.
I have been shy my whole life but since the age of fourteen I have become progressivley more and more reclusive and anxious in social situations. This was assuaged somewhat in my last two years of high school because I attended a small "special" all-girl's school for students who did not fit into mainstream schooling for whatever reason (bullying, truancy, etc.), so there was greater tolerance for "odd" behaviour. They let me stay in the classroom during breaks and allowed me to skip unnecessary group therapy-style classes where socialising was expected, which, while doing no favours to my social skills, basically limited my exposure enough to lower my anxiety levels and enable me to get to school and complete more work. But now high school is over; I am nineteen and I am unemployed and I have no friends; I cannot make eye-contact or initiate conversations; I can't even go into a supermarket or walk down the street on my own, and when I enter a room I always look so odd because I practically press my chin to my chest to stare at the floor. It's embarrassing, but I can't seem to stop it right now. I have applied to study music at university next year, and while I am quite terrified at the prospect of being in such a social environment I am also somehow looking forward to the challenge of it (although that might change as the starting date draws closer...!
) Well, I'm sorry to have waffled on so much; I know it's not very interesting. But this looks to be a really great forum (though I am quite nervous about posting for the first time! I'm a bit of a wimp!)
All the best,
Vulpes.
