gooby
Member
Hello everyone,
I am quite new here as I only very recently discovered this web site.
Can someone tell me if SP is a form of mental illness or not. I have suffered since I was 12, I am 37 now, and I always thought that I was just a freak. I didn't even know it was called social phobia until a few weeks ago. Its a pity there wasn't an internet 25 years ago.
However, I have always had a propensity for depression which I have always assumed was because of my phobia but now I don't know whether I suffer depression because of the way I am or if I am susceptible to SP because I am really a depressive. The reason I ask is that just recently I have been feeling so nostalgic for my childhood and I have been feeling so ashamed of things in my past. Not big things, but just stupid little things like for example the time my brother and I were arguing and I punched him on the arm really hard. Also when I first started suffering from SP I didn't handle it very well and I let down and hurt someone very close to me who deserved so much better. God, I feel so ashamed I just wish I could turn the clock back and do things differently. I wonder if I am feeling nostalgic for my childhood because before I was 12 I guess I was quite happy and I had everything to look forward to but I have begun to realise that I have failed to realise my potential. Are these things typical?
Also I have been very weepy recently, I'm near to tears at the moment . I guess I'm just lonely. These feelings usually pass, sometimes after a week, sometimes after a month but this time I seem to have been like this for about 3 or 4 months.
I'm not usually very good at "opening up" so forgive me if this sounds self-indulgent or stupid. I just hoped that someone might recognise how I feel.
Sorry
Gooby x
I am quite new here as I only very recently discovered this web site.
Can someone tell me if SP is a form of mental illness or not. I have suffered since I was 12, I am 37 now, and I always thought that I was just a freak. I didn't even know it was called social phobia until a few weeks ago. Its a pity there wasn't an internet 25 years ago.
However, I have always had a propensity for depression which I have always assumed was because of my phobia but now I don't know whether I suffer depression because of the way I am or if I am susceptible to SP because I am really a depressive. The reason I ask is that just recently I have been feeling so nostalgic for my childhood and I have been feeling so ashamed of things in my past. Not big things, but just stupid little things like for example the time my brother and I were arguing and I punched him on the arm really hard. Also when I first started suffering from SP I didn't handle it very well and I let down and hurt someone very close to me who deserved so much better. God, I feel so ashamed I just wish I could turn the clock back and do things differently. I wonder if I am feeling nostalgic for my childhood because before I was 12 I guess I was quite happy and I had everything to look forward to but I have begun to realise that I have failed to realise my potential. Are these things typical?
Also I have been very weepy recently, I'm near to tears at the moment . I guess I'm just lonely. These feelings usually pass, sometimes after a week, sometimes after a month but this time I seem to have been like this for about 3 or 4 months.
I'm not usually very good at "opening up" so forgive me if this sounds self-indulgent or stupid. I just hoped that someone might recognise how I feel.
Sorry
Gooby x