hello, and, again, welcome to the aperture science compu...

[siriusblack]

hey, i'm new here, decided to make an introduction, but can't really think of anything, also, you won't notice here, but i have a pretty severe form of social phobia, i feel it is the cause for my having been single all my life and having kissed only once, or twice? i seem to remember having possibly kissed once earlier, but i'm not sure whether me and that girl kissed, anyway she was like my stepniece, or something, whatever, haven't talked to her or even seen her since, and it was like 10 years ago, the other kiss was 1 year and 3 weeks ago

also, some other things:

i can't start a conversation
i can't keep a conversation going
i can't flirt
i don't consider a girl flirting/telling me she loves me to be serious(they never have been)
i can't deal with criticism either btw(but i can online)

so, that's about it, if i remember more i'll add it, and if anyone has a question go on and ask

edit(no posts left): yea, i have indeed been kissed once, but i had no role in that, basically at least the second one, the first one (if it actually happened before my nephew came up, i was like 5 or 6) was actually before i got the SA/SF, and the second one was because she "just wanted to kiss someone", which isn't quite a self-esteem boost.

 

[Helyna]

Welcome! I think you'll find that males here will be very jealous of the fact that you have kissed anyone at all, but the rest is familiar.

 

[siriusblack]

actually, i feel a lot of people here already have had way more experience than i do, but you're right, there are people with even less experience

nnyway, for me it's a problem that the longer i know someone, the harder it is for me to ask for them to give me physical contact(and i almost always have to ask for it...), and this is also the reason that for the past few months, i've barely touched anyone, except for last saturday, when i met some polish guys that are the exact opposite of me, and i hope they can help me, i'll probably see them again next saturday, but they do sort of embarass me

i think i ought to leave this page open in the pazzop somewhat more often, so they might finally realise what i have... because i can't actually tell them, even though i want to, anyway, they're quite slow to understand, i've told them often enough i've never had a girlfriend and only kissed once(or twice) though i'm not gay, i've left this site open today(she did ask me whether the site that was open was the site i'd gone on to(emma) but did not actually talk about it), someone talked about fear of being alone, and i said "well i have quite the opposite" and he didn't understand, and neither did emma, and bla bla...


in fact, i have feelings for emma that could be described as love, but i can't do anything with them because i'm too afraid to lose our friendship, and the social phobia plays a part in that...