moon-sphinx
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I have just finished a very stressfull and sometimes lonely time at university where I was too frightened to go to classes or socialize. I decided that I was going to make drastic changes to my life and become a more socially acceptable person I was excited about my future and what I was capable of. for the first time in my life I was happy because I thought I had finally changed.
I got a 9-5 job as an office junior and even though I was nervous and anxious as hell around people I thought I was was doing well to hide it. And even though I worried myself sick about making mistakes I thought I was just being paranoid and so I actually started to enjoy something like this for the first time in my life and my confidence grew.
This is great progress for people like us, but what happens when all your fears come true? what if you found out that people don't like you? that you had made mistakes and you wasn't appreciated? My boss called my into her office to have a chat as she felt that I had some problems and that also I wasn't doing my job properly. this has just devastaed me as i now realise that all my worries were not just me being silly that I am actually all of those things and that job was confirmation.
I don't know what i'm supposed to do or feel now, all i know is that my self esteem and worth has dropped even more I dont know whether to pick myself up or just give up trying.
I got a 9-5 job as an office junior and even though I was nervous and anxious as hell around people I thought I was was doing well to hide it. And even though I worried myself sick about making mistakes I thought I was just being paranoid and so I actually started to enjoy something like this for the first time in my life and my confidence grew.
This is great progress for people like us, but what happens when all your fears come true? what if you found out that people don't like you? that you had made mistakes and you wasn't appreciated? My boss called my into her office to have a chat as she felt that I had some problems and that also I wasn't doing my job properly. this has just devastaed me as i now realise that all my worries were not just me being silly that I am actually all of those things and that job was confirmation.
I don't know what i'm supposed to do or feel now, all i know is that my self esteem and worth has dropped even more I dont know whether to pick myself up or just give up trying.