went to the class today
Just got back from the newstart lifeskills class, had to get up at 8am! 8O
It started at 9:45am to 11am, only an hour.I went in and there was a big room with chairs in a circle and sat down.Man i was nervous as hell, the people who run the thing introduced themselves and a bit about their background etc.The big "crap your pants* moment came, they wanted for us to partner up and sorta get to know another person in the room and tell them bit about yourself.
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8O
I was dreading like this would happen, they then wanted you to present this person to the room and tell em about themselves, their interests etc.I got that sinking feeling in my gut and the build up of anxiety feeling.But strangely this time i could focus on the other people a little bit better than i used to.I was still nervous as hell, but i managed to talk to the guy i was partnered up with and ask em a bit about themself.Strangely when the time came to speak i didnt feel as nervous as i thought i would be, allthough dreading having to speak.Maybe i kinda acted in a way, like said to myself, ok shit, your gonna do this so just do it.I actually volunteered to speak second after the other person went.I really dont know what came over me, i was still very nervous after i had to speak but it wasnt so bad.I didnt mention to them i had a social phobia problem, i guess they wouldnt believe me if i did mention it.
We will see how it goes tomorrow, i go same time on wednesday and thursday and friday and monday im off.
Maybe it was you guys sending good thoughts to me, that made me feel better hehe :lol:
Anyways will keep you posted, note: i do worry i will get that feeling like i will loose control of embaress myself, i guess its still in the back of my mind.Kinda like if your carrying a cup of water and everyone is lookin at you.