Going to be alone again.

[Moonie]

I have recently come to the conclusion that my relationship with my BF needs to end. We have been going out for almost 2 1/2 years. While he is the one who gave me a life so to speak, he has let me down one too many times. I'd be an idiot if I let him continue to make me feel like crap. It almost seems like a chore to get him to do things with me.

The only thing is, without him, I really have no one. I didn't have a social life/friends or anything like that. I was alright with it then. I was concentrating on school and just trying to be happy with who I am. But now that I was in a comfort zone for awhile, I am scared to be alone again with absolotely no one.

How will I meet people? Where will my social network come from now? How can I gain my the confidence I had before I met him and even in the beginning of this relationship? FYI, I met this guy online. We talked for a few months and finally met at a bar. I never met anyone from online - just him - and I don't know why. I have talked to many people online, but this is the only person that I actually met.

Does anyone else feel like they have no one?

 

[charlieHungerford]

I kind of know how you are feeling, being alone is so hard in terms of building a platform to really progress in life and make things happen. I am single, have no social life any more, I live by myself, things are just not happening and its hard to really know where to begin in order to make things happen, I have basically come to the conclusion I must overcome SA in order for things to move on and I am very hopeful I will overcome this in 2007.
But hey, you met this guy online, maybe you will meet your mr nice guy online too. Its more and more common nowadays to meet people online!

It sounds like things with your boyfriend are just not right anymore, I think you are right that you can't be with someone who makes you feel crap and the connection has gone. That must really hurt. I can understand that there must be a real feeling that you shouldn't end things because you don't want to be alone, but you don't sound happy with how things are like this anyway. Maybe a fresh start will do you good? Its a really tough one, I hope all works out for you.

Oh, this is my 7th post in the last 24 hours so in reply to your post on my message - I found the group over the internet because I want to overcome my public speaking fear desperately. But I don't think this is the right answer at the moment. i.e. I am going to be crapping myself tomorrrow if I turn up, I probably won't say more than a few words and feel really uncomfortable and then I may even feel worse, kicking myself that I am so rubbish at it. I have such huge confidence in my abilities to work things out in my mind, I feel this is something I have not addressed correctly yet, I feel maybe I can sort out my fear by correcting the mis-wired beliefs I have developed. I am absolutely certain I won't go now and I feel really bad because I have asked so many friends and my family and everyone says you have to go, but I just don't feel comfortable with it - driving for an hour and a half to get there, paying money to be sat in a circle with strangers, almost certainly having panic attacks and struggling to get my words out, its not right for me at this moment in time. I just don't have any positive thoughts about doing this tomorrow, I don't even have the motivational feeling that this is going to do me the world of good. I know this maybe me taking the easy option again, but going tomorrow just doesn't feel right.