friends and relationships

[ioanna]

Its been so difficult for me to make friends and if i had some i almost avoid them,not because i dont want them or because i dont feel ok with them-i feel great with them-but i dont know i feel that it doesnt matter anymore.This happens also with boys.I like someone but if he likes me i push him away.The only thing that i dont have problem is when i write and dont have to see someone in the eyes.Its lonely and miss having someone near and some other times i just say its ok been alone.I m in college ,i have a friend,we talk but its not like i used be.I m not the person who wanted to go out anymore...Just home-college,but friends?

 

[Kien]

I lost real friendship in teenage. Since then I hardly spend any time with friends at all. Only at one or 2 rare events. And even there I'm more or less seen as the 3rd wheel.

The only person I often talk to is Blonderedhead here at SPW.

 

[theloneliest]

me too

I have the same problems, and if someone likes me I end up not talking to them even if I like her back.

 

[celestialrecluse]

my friends called round tonight, but i made up some bull so i didn't have to talk to them. i really need my friends round me now, but it's so hard to open up to them. i seem to do the same thing, it's easier to push people away than to let them in, thats how it seems now, but i know it's wrong, i just cant' take the step to let someone in 100%.

 

[snacks]

I have one person right now that I would consider a close friend, but we're definitely not nearly as close as we used to be. About a year ago she left to take part in an au pair program in another country. Even if she were available to do things with, I would avoid her for the same mysterious reason you cite.

The only person I feel pretty comfortable going out in public with is my boyfriend, and he lives in another town; so, I don't get to see him often. Woe.