freakin dance clubs....

[Duraldo]

So this girl from my school invited me to go to this neogoth club last night (freakin event night no less). So I stupidly agreed, thinking maybe I'd actually have fun, I always do with this girl (that's pretty much my only friend whom I've developed feelings for [this is another confusing problem all together] really I wanted to dance with her.....). I just felt so weird at this club, that and dancing is something I never have done. Like I was really looking forward to dancing before going, I wasn't even anxious...yet. So everything is fine until we get there, she's like dancing with her girlfriends and stuff, and I find that my legs are stone... I can't get my mind to get my legs to move (it's like the freakin phone anxiety I had all over again) and i don't know why.

I officially feel stupid now. As for this girl....idk probably made myself look like the biggest tool ever, god bless her, she was trying to hard to make me feel included with a group of people I don't know. I feel so silly that this is even an issue anymore, I keep thinking I'm past my stupid anxieties....but no.

I'm sure I'm going to get dragged again there (that is if she doesn't see me as a complete loser after last night, least I was the only guy in the group!). Hell I used to have issues just going to clubs, so least this is an improvement...kinda.

 

[bigcat1967]

Just keep doing it. Your last sentence was that there was an improvement.

The more you do things - the more comfortable you get.

 

[Death Rider]

I'd recommend dancing lessons, but we all know that's not the issue. Until you become a world-respected dancer, you would still feel too inferior to dance with her ;D Your "do" attitude is.. ahm... what's the word... well - superb, but apparently your subconsciousness still remembers to fear stuff you know not ;D
I bet you will do fine next time It will not be your first time anymore

P.S. Try inviting her for a walk. Go somewhere private, talk. Don't try anything sexual, only romance Should be fine

 

[Duraldo]

I'd recommend dancing lessons, but we all know that's not the issue. Until you become a world-respected dancer, you would still feel too inferior to dance with her ;D Your "do" attitude is.. ahm... what's the word... well - superb, but apparently your subconsciousness still remembers to fear stuff you know not ;D
I bet you will do fine next time It will not be your first time anymore

P.S. Try inviting her for a walk. Go somewhere private, talk. Don't try anything sexual, only romance Should be fine

inviting her for a walk would be pointless, essentially i walk with her every other day on the way to and from class when/if i see her. I really do need to just confront her about how I feel, you can cut the sexual tension between us sometimes with a freakin chainsaw. I can't figure out if she's just being friendly or wants more. Shes always like resisted when I like tried to put a move on her (like cuddle or something dumb), but never brought it up. She has SA too tho, which she admitted to me, which could explain the weirdness from her sometimes... at least that's what I'm hoping. She never tells me about her bf (which she may have, because I have been confused as her bf in the past, to which she got really embarrassed and quickly changed the subject, like she didn't want me to know. This is going to end badly I fear.

 

[oopsiedoop]

The goth clubs are the only place I feel comfortable. They're the only place you can stand in a dark corner all night and no one will think anything of it other than you fit in.