feeling nothing

[Jegan]

I feel soo low rite now. I've lost eveyone. its only becuz i can not open up. I cant remeber anything. I cant even remeber the layrics from my favourite songs. I cant learn.I dont even know if i have a personality..aaaaaaa this is killing me. I feel nothing at all. My mind is blank. So lonely and im not enjoying it. I just think death sound way better for me. cuz my life sucks. no one is in it anymore.

sorry for the negative post. I just had to lead it out.

 

[BrokenSmile]

Do you take drugs? Can you tell me what's your treatment? Maybe those are side effects....

 

[joshueg]

Don' t be sorry. Negative feelings must be expressed too. I cannot be too positive, because i am not having a good time either, but i can tell you that bad times as well as good times, go by. :wink:

 

[Amiyumi]

Don't think too deeply, or look too hard at your life just now. Take time out from yourself, from what's bothering you. An escape, like video games or sleeping it off, depending on your situation. I have days where I can't think, study, or remember anything. I just loose sensation in my body, I'm not on medication, but if you are, maybe like brokensmile said it could be side effects... but yeah, we do have bad days. It happens to me when I'm low and depressed. Sorry I'm not much help, but I do know how it feels to loose people cause of your sa, but it does pass..

But suicide isn't the best thing, I'm sorry you feel that way, I can;t really say much on that, so I'd better not.

But you can only go so low, after that the only way is up, so hang in there. :wink:

 

[Tryin]

I feel soo low rite now. I've lost eveyone. its only becuz i can not open up. I cant remeber anything. I cant even remeber the layrics from my favourite songs. I cant learn.I dont even know if i have a personality..aaaaaaa this is killing me. I feel nothing at all. My mind is blank. So lonely and im not enjoying it. I just think death sound way better for me. cuz my life sucks. no one is in it anymore.

sorry for the negative post. I just had to lead it out.

i use to have feelings like this. don't know what to tell you... we all are with you, aren't we folks? do not give up (i know you don't).

 

[Jegan]

Thanks Amiyumi,joshueg,BrokenSmile and Trying for ur replies. I dont know why i feel this way. I just dont feel conected with things and people. I dont know wat's going on around me and I dont know how to express my self in words. Yes Im on zyprexa. like u said it cud be its' side effects. But all i can say is that im on this dark side of this world n' I dont know how to come to the light. I'm stuck. I realllllllllllllly need help. I've had suicidal thoughts but I dont have the guts or ideas to do it. I swearrr I have no motivation at all.

 

[E]

I also feel like this.. these past couple days especially...
I also feel the same as you about suicide, i really think about it alot but don't have the guts and a side of me wants to live but i want to live a good and normal life and I'm to get there just don't know how it's really difiicult for me to talk cause my mind is blank when i'm around people but when i'm alone i think about stuff and then don't have any people to say these things to...
Like especially at work i feel so bad that i don't talk alot, i really want to but don't have anything interesting to say so people don't even try to talk to me.. only once in a while we talk and thats when they start the conversation usually and also it's only for a few minutes or seconds..
I hate that part of myself that doesn't talk :evil: