hey everyone as i always start with i've been on medicine for ocd and have always feared being a pedophile/pervert/bad person lately that fear has been subsiding until recently. Im bad in relationships and am not popular with girls which also makes me fear that i will be a loner. A few nights ago i was on a website to meet people and there was a 13yr old girl that started flirting with me and sent me a picture of her in a bikini.... i found her attractive... she kept talking dirty and i masturbated to her.... afterwards i felt so guilty! i feel like this isnt normal and no one my age would do that (19) i mean im attracted to people my age but because of her age i feel like i'm sick