fed up...no help 4 me

[corrinaelizabeth]

dont know what 2 do....i mean fair enough i was depressed ne way crying everyday on citalopram but i just seem 2 b feelin worse and worse the only thing i can think of is the klonopin,is it meant 2 increase ur depression?i just feel like sobbing my heart out i miss my friends i miss my ex i want 2 run away from it all yeah gr8 idea 4 sum 1 wit agoraphobia,i dont know how much longer i can go on i really dont i havent ne thin 2 live 4 im just sick of it im sick of my thoghts constantly goin on in my head i want sum peace i feel like im goin mad sometimes im sick of the burden i am on mum and dad they dont have much of a life im sorry 4 all the things ive done in the past 2 mum and dad i feel guilty all the time im paranoid anxious just ashamed of myself i havent got the guts 2 end it i just dont know wats wrong wit me i rub my neck til i get scabs on it wats that about argghhhhh i just dont know whats wrong wit me the worst thing is the thoughts maybe i cud just stay in bed all day and sleep and get some peace frm my thoughts i h8 myself i really do plz some 1 help me

 

[Chilling__Echo]

hey sweetie, are you switching meds right now? i'm not sure if that's what you're saying but anywho, that's a stressful time most deffinately!

i HATE taking Paxil but i can't get off of it b/c my anxiety gets so high. i tried switching to welbutrin but it made my depression WORSE. i went from being fine to within a couple of days being the lowest i've ever been and in the waiting room of my school's counseling center as a walk-in. the meds just messed me up so bad and really made me not at all myself.

if i were you i'd get to the doc pronto. ESPECIALLY If you're on meds and you're feeling like this. you shouldn't feel like this at all.

just keep in mind that it's a disorder, and this isn't you!! you aren't the anxiety, paranoia, stress, everything. it's an imbalance inside, separate yourself from it. you'll still feel like shit, but keep in mind it won't last forever and there IS an answer for you and HELP for you. you can make it. take care and you've got alot of people here that care about you

 

[Meow]

Yeah exactly what Chilling Echo said! It isn't you, just remember that. And I doubt anyone is thinking bad of you, your family love you and want to help you i'm sure.

How long have you been on the meds you are on right now, if you started taking those recently it could be side effects or adjustment period, either way you need to give your doctor a call asap to explain how you feel.

Has something bad happened that has triggered this or is it just feelings in general?

You need to talk to a professional about this to figure out if it's a reaction to the meds hun.

 

[corrinaelizabeth]

thanks guys i felt alot better after reading ur replies its so nice to ahve support off here,i am going to the docs on wed and that will be 2 weeks that ive been on klonopin,so it prob is just the klonopin setting in lol,but ur right i do need 2 c some 1 pronto,it would help so much 2 talk 2 some 1 bout all my probs and c that im not mad!!lol ne way am feeling slightly better 2day but thank u 4 ur kind posts xxxxx :lol:

 

[Chilling__Echo]

ok good, i'm glad you're going back to the doc, b/c welbutrin really fucked my head up. these meds do alot to our minds!! i promise you're not crazy! it's not you, it's the meds that are messin you up and it sounds like the klop-whatever one isn't workin for ya - but luckily we live in a time where new meds are coming out all the time so there is something for you out there!

i struggled (and still am now i guess) for a long time about taking paxil, yes it works, but i hate the side effects and i hate thinking i can't 'deal' with life without it. it makes me feel weak and really low. but i talked to my doc about it and she told me that really, i should be thankful i've found something that works, and she's right. i couldn't imagine not having having the meds to help me, like a step in the right direction.

i'm also afraid that one day, it'll stop working, like i'll develop a tolerance to it, but i just take it one day at a time ya know? that's all we can do. and this time of yours will be over! just take it slow and take care of YOU