Over the past 15 or so years, I've built up a lot of walls. I've embraced apathy, rejected empathy, I've hated easily and forgiven with difficulty.
Recently, I've been letting people in, but have found that people take advantage of it. I've been laughed at, called a wimp and a whiner, been told to grow up and act my age because all of my fears and inhibitions are "Stupid".
I don't know how to explain to people that I can't control what makes me scared or anxious. I don't want to disappear back into my world of apathetic indifference, but I don't know how to make those closest to me understand what's going on.
Recently, I've been letting people in, but have found that people take advantage of it. I've been laughed at, called a wimp and a whiner, been told to grow up and act my age because all of my fears and inhibitions are "Stupid".
I don't know how to explain to people that I can't control what makes me scared or anxious. I don't want to disappear back into my world of apathetic indifference, but I don't know how to make those closest to me understand what's going on.