hey de-vin
yea I love philosphy and theology. I'm always thinking about stuff like this.
First thing I'd say though is that the question of free will is such a massive question in life that many great thinkers throughout the centruies have tried to figure it out and it still baffles people today. I think there are some mysteries in life that relate to all of us and yet none of us really know for sure what the answers are...like death for example....we all die....yet none of us know for SURE what will happen...it's all theories and hopes in varying confidences.
Secondly I think it's a good thing that you're searching these kinds of questions. You're obviously interested in the truth about life...so all I'd say is don't get too disheartened...the deeper you go, the more complex the answers are going to be...so stick with it.
But in answer to the free will question...my immediate thoughts are that, yes we do have free will. I believe this because I can exercise it right now. if I chose to, I could skip lunch today. I wouldn't like it...and my stomach would urge me to change my mind...but if I made it to dinner, I could look back and say, that was MY choice to skip lunch.
Now there is an arguement that says that everything influences our thoughts in some way, i.e. if you hadn't bought up the topic of free will would I have skipped lunch today to prove I have free will....etc....and why out of all free will exercises did I choose to skip lunch....maybe cause fasting and food has been on my mind recently?....but, personally, the way I deal with that is to just...well....not think about it too much....which I know isn't the best answer...but I just don't allow myself to stop believing that I have free will and I make choices and I'm the one to blame or get credit for those choices. I find that thinking like that allows me to feel much more powerful and in control of my life. It does also mean I have to take responsibility when I make bad choices, but thats what lifes about I think....I feel more alive, when I believe in free will.