Lord Baltimore
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I feel like i've been entering into a downward spiral and i just can't seem to stop it. 18 months ago i was 18 years old, one year removed from high school, happy as a clam, living it up with friends and full of ambition as i embarked on the rest of life's journey, however around last Christmas things started changing. I relapsed with my OCD and it became worse than i had ever experienced. Panic attacks started. Throughout 2010 things slowly started slipping further and further down this path i don't want to go down. I'm developing Social Anxiety Disorder and i'm extremely self conscious and i feel all around inadequate. Not just irrational things but i've had some friends move away and i've lost touch with a few more and my job situation has gone down the toilet. I've allowed bitterness to creep back into my life and now i'm just so angry all the time and i try my best to hide it but you can only supress it for so long. It's just so frustrating because i really thought around last summer i had made it, and now things are more bleak than ever. I could go on and on about what else has gone wrong but the thing i want to know most is how to fix it?? how do you turn things around before you become a bitter p.o.ed old man. It took me 18 years to get to wear i was truely happy and i threw it all away in not even two years