jsein
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I don't know what to do, I have to admit im pretty drunk right now, probably th only reason i'm posting this...I'm 22 and I have no one to talk to, I don't think I could really end it but it scares me that the thought even crosses my mind.
I want to call my friend but i'm worried he won't understand, I don't know what to say and honest;y I don't know why im posting this. Guess im just looking for advice. Should I call my friend and basicly poor my heart out?
I'm alone, I don't do anything, it's the social anxiety keeping me from living a normal life that I SO want to experience. I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. i've seen about 4-5 therapists and taken a couple different pills and nothing works. Yeha the pills numb it but it's still there!
I need someone to talk to and my friends the on ly one I can think of, my mom hasn't talked to me in almost a year and my dad's basicly given up, I don't know what to do, I don't think they understand. It's so hard I want to be normal and just go out and have fun and go to school and get a job...everything but theres just something holding me back that I can't control. I don't know how to explain it, I can imagine being normal and not understanding it. I don't know who to talk to but I feel that my friend may be the only one who can talk me out of this but im afraid to even call him. I mean this may sound strange but he's "normal" he has a girlfriend he has tons of friends, a job and lives a healthy life and I just don't think he'd understand...really the only thing keeping me from doing it is the thought of meeting that girl it just makes my heart beat fast and my mind numb thinking about it but then I just think will that ever happen to me? I don't know what to do and I guess i'm just looking for advise.
It's so intense to the point where you couldn't imagnine what it's like. I live with my grandma and If shes out and someone rings the door I can't answer it. I've gone to the point where I go in the backyard and hide, it sucks so bad, I really don't want to be like this! Some days I feel ok but others it;s horibble!
Can anyone relate? Am I alone? Has anyone felt like this and been able to get through it and live a normal life? I think social anxiety isn't recognized enough in society, it's not understood to it's fullest, It was hard enough to go to those 4 or so therapist i've seen, it's even harder to realise they did nothing.
I want to call my friend but i'm worried he won't understand, I don't know what to say and honest;y I don't know why im posting this. Guess im just looking for advice. Should I call my friend and basicly poor my heart out?
I'm alone, I don't do anything, it's the social anxiety keeping me from living a normal life that I SO want to experience. I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. i've seen about 4-5 therapists and taken a couple different pills and nothing works. Yeha the pills numb it but it's still there!
I need someone to talk to and my friends the on ly one I can think of, my mom hasn't talked to me in almost a year and my dad's basicly given up, I don't know what to do, I don't think they understand. It's so hard I want to be normal and just go out and have fun and go to school and get a job...everything but theres just something holding me back that I can't control. I don't know how to explain it, I can imagine being normal and not understanding it. I don't know who to talk to but I feel that my friend may be the only one who can talk me out of this but im afraid to even call him. I mean this may sound strange but he's "normal" he has a girlfriend he has tons of friends, a job and lives a healthy life and I just don't think he'd understand...really the only thing keeping me from doing it is the thought of meeting that girl it just makes my heart beat fast and my mind numb thinking about it but then I just think will that ever happen to me? I don't know what to do and I guess i'm just looking for advise.
It's so intense to the point where you couldn't imagnine what it's like. I live with my grandma and If shes out and someone rings the door I can't answer it. I've gone to the point where I go in the backyard and hide, it sucks so bad, I really don't want to be like this! Some days I feel ok but others it;s horibble!
Can anyone relate? Am I alone? Has anyone felt like this and been able to get through it and live a normal life? I think social anxiety isn't recognized enough in society, it's not understood to it's fullest, It was hard enough to go to those 4 or so therapist i've seen, it's even harder to realise they did nothing.