RebeccaWolf
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Hey. I'm a 16 year old girl from England. Does this sound like some kind of social anxiety? Someone mentioned it the other day and I'm curious. I can't talk to anyone about it because I'm too scared...
People terrify me. A good example of this is how in college someone in my group might ask me to go and book out some cameras (one of my subjects in Media). Booking out cameras hardly involves talking to people usually, and I know perfectly well how to do it, but it's terrifying. When they ask me to do it I feel really sick and just want to cry. I tell them that I'm afraid to but they tell me to stop being silly. I reply to that with "I'm just shy" and they say "So? I'm shy too, it's only getting a camera". It's automatically a bit easier if someone I know comes with me. Another example is that my mum wants me to get a job, but I'm too afraid to. Asking around, applying, interviews and the idea of working where there are people all have the same affect as the camera thing.
When I was in school, one thing that really terrified me was when a teacher asked me to take something to another teacher. Even when I knew the other teacher and even if the other teacher didn't have a class in their classroom. It just made me feel sick and it was terrifying.
Another thing is that if I'm around a lot of people for a long time, usually indoors (not outdoors), it actually physically hurts in my lower back and stomach. I have no idea what this is but it's really painful. It's like a constant ache. I have no idea what this is but it seems to be relevant to this...
The thing that really upsets me is that no one understands. Everyone says "Don't worry, it'll be fine once you start talking!" or "Stop being so shy" or "Once you actually try to talk to people or be in big groups for a while, it'll be fine! You'll like it!". It's really upsetting...
People terrify me. A good example of this is how in college someone in my group might ask me to go and book out some cameras (one of my subjects in Media). Booking out cameras hardly involves talking to people usually, and I know perfectly well how to do it, but it's terrifying. When they ask me to do it I feel really sick and just want to cry. I tell them that I'm afraid to but they tell me to stop being silly. I reply to that with "I'm just shy" and they say "So? I'm shy too, it's only getting a camera". It's automatically a bit easier if someone I know comes with me. Another example is that my mum wants me to get a job, but I'm too afraid to. Asking around, applying, interviews and the idea of working where there are people all have the same affect as the camera thing.
When I was in school, one thing that really terrified me was when a teacher asked me to take something to another teacher. Even when I knew the other teacher and even if the other teacher didn't have a class in their classroom. It just made me feel sick and it was terrifying.
Another thing is that if I'm around a lot of people for a long time, usually indoors (not outdoors), it actually physically hurts in my lower back and stomach. I have no idea what this is but it's really painful. It's like a constant ache. I have no idea what this is but it seems to be relevant to this...
The thing that really upsets me is that no one understands. Everyone says "Don't worry, it'll be fine once you start talking!" or "Stop being so shy" or "Once you actually try to talk to people or be in big groups for a while, it'll be fine! You'll like it!". It's really upsetting...
