tehStranger
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LittleMissMuffet
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Hi The Stranger,
I didn't understand your last sentence, but I'll answer the first part of your post....
I do find that I think on a different wave-length most of the time. For one thing, I tend to go into details habitually. I'll be worried over every little detail of some simple everyday social interaction, whilst others wouldn't bother noticing such things.
I'm also pretty talented at drawing and painting; which requires an attention to detail and the ability to get 'lost' somewhat concentrating on an object. It also requires a sensitivity towards sensations like the way something looks, and even the mood and feel of something/someone.
Also, back in school, if I was given an essay or research project to write, I would generally go into such a through investigation of every little fact and figure, often running my self down into exhaustion, and then having a lot of trouble summarising all the information I had gathered. Sometimes I would also find that I had collected details that weren't even relevant to the topic I had to write about.
Also, I find that during times of great stress and pressure that -lo and behold- whislt everyone else is losing their head and sense of persepctive, that I am instead the most cool, calm and collected I've ever been. That there is something in the adrenaline of not having the chance to 'choose' between many options or possiblities, that somehow refines my focus. That, also, I am really 'together' and non-anxious when I'm playing sport and don't have time to think; when I have an immediate deadline as opposed to one that is months away; and when a situation calls for any kind of emergency in action; and also, when face-to-face with a really aggressive or nasty person, I somehow know exactly what to do and no longer feel so unsure.
My therapist told me that one of the reasons for this is my need to have a focus; and that without this, my mind easily gets distracted. ...I think that it is to some extent, a personality type. I may be a little more extreme, however, in having these characteristics; although, I don't think that it is really bad either.
I didn't understand your last sentence, but I'll answer the first part of your post....
I do find that I think on a different wave-length most of the time. For one thing, I tend to go into details habitually. I'll be worried over every little detail of some simple everyday social interaction, whilst others wouldn't bother noticing such things.
I'm also pretty talented at drawing and painting; which requires an attention to detail and the ability to get 'lost' somewhat concentrating on an object. It also requires a sensitivity towards sensations like the way something looks, and even the mood and feel of something/someone.
Also, back in school, if I was given an essay or research project to write, I would generally go into such a through investigation of every little fact and figure, often running my self down into exhaustion, and then having a lot of trouble summarising all the information I had gathered. Sometimes I would also find that I had collected details that weren't even relevant to the topic I had to write about.
Also, I find that during times of great stress and pressure that -lo and behold- whislt everyone else is losing their head and sense of persepctive, that I am instead the most cool, calm and collected I've ever been. That there is something in the adrenaline of not having the chance to 'choose' between many options or possiblities, that somehow refines my focus. That, also, I am really 'together' and non-anxious when I'm playing sport and don't have time to think; when I have an immediate deadline as opposed to one that is months away; and when a situation calls for any kind of emergency in action; and also, when face-to-face with a really aggressive or nasty person, I somehow know exactly what to do and no longer feel so unsure.
My therapist told me that one of the reasons for this is my need to have a focus; and that without this, my mind easily gets distracted. ...I think that it is to some extent, a personality type. I may be a little more extreme, however, in having these characteristics; although, I don't think that it is really bad either.
SYNAPSE
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I'm culturally offbeat - pretty much. I'm also very anxious and with what some call mild giftedness (with all the problems this implies).
People can already tell from the way I talk. . . and that already begins to bother them in many cases. I tend to reject the use of most idioms or slang; instead, I try to be polite and am obsessed with being precise (just imagine). :?
Some even asked me if I'm a foreigner - sometimes due to my looks too (some are just not used to seeing spiky hair, dark clothes, shades. . . outside of the telly). (I kept geeting this annoying feeling that everyone is a dork obsessed with fitting in no matter the cost be it spiritual or moral - and it usually turns out to be true.)
If they are poor, they'll tend to think it's because "I'm kinda preppy"; if they are left-wing extremists they'll earlier or later relate me to American culture; if they are "jock" types they'll make theories that I am some sort of "goth" or gay - so I seem to be the target of all sorts of xenophobic projections. Some people tell me "I'm too philosophical" and that I should have majored in that - this need to classify and talk me down I find baffling; I never get used to it, again and again. . . ¿Why won't they just let me be?.
Some people go out of their way to hurt me with a spite I still find painfully hard to understand; especially in adults.
For my part, I tend to feel either revolted or indifferent to popular ads, tv and culture. I couldn't care less about soccer for example. I find the socially imposed codes of conduct between men and women sexist and misleading (that is: leading to infidelity, break ups, unhappy abusive relationships, whatnot. . . ). I'm alright by myself when others seek to pack themselves together as their first priority; I only seek people when I feel I like them. I used to try and make sense of things - intellectually dissecting mores, prejudices and whatever seemed arbitrary (unjust) - since at least primary school; it got worse and worse as I saw that people retaliated violently and no one would help me - as silly as it sounds: that's how I got to where I am as a fanatic of "my own path" and nothing else.
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I was a little better during the last years of high school in the sense that I had just so many classmates I couldn't help finding some to share things with (even though I didn't make friends); books, music, writing, martial arts, tradable card games. . . The more variety the better. . .
The people I found at uni where more narrow minded and stereotypical.
Work is hell. . . I seem to get mobbed since I started; and if i don't I get bored anyway. I don't find anyone I meet interesting. I get blamed for being alone. . . now I'm constantly afraid I'll get fired just because I choose not to have lunch with a bunch of obnoxious morons that smoke on my face, eat junk food every single day and, conversation-wise, are stuck at really lame toilet and sex jokes. :x
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It ended up being a rant. . . far longer than the 3 original statements it had intented this to be. At least it fulfills the purpose of showing how is that I'm weird. . . and it'll probably entertain some. Whatever. . .
People can already tell from the way I talk. . . and that already begins to bother them in many cases. I tend to reject the use of most idioms or slang; instead, I try to be polite and am obsessed with being precise (just imagine). :?
Some even asked me if I'm a foreigner - sometimes due to my looks too (some are just not used to seeing spiky hair, dark clothes, shades. . . outside of the telly). (I kept geeting this annoying feeling that everyone is a dork obsessed with fitting in no matter the cost be it spiritual or moral - and it usually turns out to be true.)
If they are poor, they'll tend to think it's because "I'm kinda preppy"; if they are left-wing extremists they'll earlier or later relate me to American culture; if they are "jock" types they'll make theories that I am some sort of "goth" or gay - so I seem to be the target of all sorts of xenophobic projections. Some people tell me "I'm too philosophical" and that I should have majored in that - this need to classify and talk me down I find baffling; I never get used to it, again and again. . . ¿Why won't they just let me be?.
Some people go out of their way to hurt me with a spite I still find painfully hard to understand; especially in adults.
For my part, I tend to feel either revolted or indifferent to popular ads, tv and culture. I couldn't care less about soccer for example. I find the socially imposed codes of conduct between men and women sexist and misleading (that is: leading to infidelity, break ups, unhappy abusive relationships, whatnot. . . ). I'm alright by myself when others seek to pack themselves together as their first priority; I only seek people when I feel I like them. I used to try and make sense of things - intellectually dissecting mores, prejudices and whatever seemed arbitrary (unjust) - since at least primary school; it got worse and worse as I saw that people retaliated violently and no one would help me - as silly as it sounds: that's how I got to where I am as a fanatic of "my own path" and nothing else.
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I was a little better during the last years of high school in the sense that I had just so many classmates I couldn't help finding some to share things with (even though I didn't make friends); books, music, writing, martial arts, tradable card games. . . The more variety the better. . .
The people I found at uni where more narrow minded and stereotypical.
Work is hell. . . I seem to get mobbed since I started; and if i don't I get bored anyway. I don't find anyone I meet interesting. I get blamed for being alone. . . now I'm constantly afraid I'll get fired just because I choose not to have lunch with a bunch of obnoxious morons that smoke on my face, eat junk food every single day and, conversation-wise, are stuck at really lame toilet and sex jokes. :x
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It ended up being a rant. . . far longer than the 3 original statements it had intented this to be. At least it fulfills the purpose of showing how is that I'm weird. . . and it'll probably entertain some. Whatever. . .