NevermindThat
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I hate Thanksgiving and Christmas because that means I'm going to be around relatives who I don't often see and they're going to want to know what I've been up to and I'm going to have absolutely nothing to tell them. It's supposed to be a joyous time, yet I go away feeling so ashamed because I've done nothing with my life (I'm twenty-eight). It also leaves me feeling depressed because I see that my cousins, who range in age from late teens to mid-30s, have grown up and have done something with their lives and I feel like I'm losing them. I feel like I can't be around them anymore, because I can't relate. I feel like they're going to unintentionally say something that will hurt my feelings and make me feel even worse about myself. I also feel like I'm still 11-years-old. I love my extended family so much; they're important to me. But I feel I can't be around them. I miss them so much, but I continue to distance myself from them. I'm already dreading the holidays. To add to that, I have a couple of birthday parties I have to attend that time of year as well.
Just typing that made me frustrated and angry.
Just typing that made me frustrated and angry.