Jazzyjazmin
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Okay so I've been shy my entire life, way before I ever started school. So I want to know if I might have something more than just shyness.
I think it started freshman year of high school and is still happening now. ( I just finished my junior year, haven't started senior year yet.) Throughout high school I would never do projects that involved presenting. That brought my grade down, but I managed to pass the classes that I skipped projects in. I would not get up from my seat to do anything like get a book, throw trash away, or go to the bathroom if everybody is sitting down because if I stand up, people look and I get nervous and tense. In history, during junior year, we had this huge end of the year project and if you didn't do it, you would fail the quarter because we barely had any assignments. It was a group project, but were graded individually. I did it, and it was horrible. My forehead was getting sweaty, my face was all warm, it felt physically impossible for me to make eye contact and I was up there for like 5ish min. Everytime before reading aloud from my desk or presenting, my heart starts beating faster, my palms and my face get sweaty, and it feels as though the room is getting warmer. ( I also never ask for help in class when I really need it, which ends up hurting my grade.)
I really don't like meeting new people, because I tend to think that they are thinking badly of me or that I'm not pretty. I never had a bf, but I have had chances to have one. The reason I don't go for it is because I think that the guy will judge me, think I'm boring, and compare me with others. Also I don't let guys stare at my face for too long, it's weird but I feel that if they do, that they won't think I'm as pretty as they thought I was.
I hate going to the mall, too many people, makes me tense and I think it actually lowers my self esteem even more. There are times that when people laugh, I feel as though they're laughing about me when they really aren't. I've never went to parties or dances because I'm afraid people will judge me or I'll embarrass myself. I hate being the center of attention or being watched while doing something. I really can't do anything without having negative thoughts or feelings about myself, or thinking that I know what others think of me when I really don't.
Sorry for this being really long... Any thoughts?
I think it started freshman year of high school and is still happening now. ( I just finished my junior year, haven't started senior year yet.) Throughout high school I would never do projects that involved presenting. That brought my grade down, but I managed to pass the classes that I skipped projects in. I would not get up from my seat to do anything like get a book, throw trash away, or go to the bathroom if everybody is sitting down because if I stand up, people look and I get nervous and tense. In history, during junior year, we had this huge end of the year project and if you didn't do it, you would fail the quarter because we barely had any assignments. It was a group project, but were graded individually. I did it, and it was horrible. My forehead was getting sweaty, my face was all warm, it felt physically impossible for me to make eye contact and I was up there for like 5ish min. Everytime before reading aloud from my desk or presenting, my heart starts beating faster, my palms and my face get sweaty, and it feels as though the room is getting warmer. ( I also never ask for help in class when I really need it, which ends up hurting my grade.)
I really don't like meeting new people, because I tend to think that they are thinking badly of me or that I'm not pretty. I never had a bf, but I have had chances to have one. The reason I don't go for it is because I think that the guy will judge me, think I'm boring, and compare me with others. Also I don't let guys stare at my face for too long, it's weird but I feel that if they do, that they won't think I'm as pretty as they thought I was.
I hate going to the mall, too many people, makes me tense and I think it actually lowers my self esteem even more. There are times that when people laugh, I feel as though they're laughing about me when they really aren't. I've never went to parties or dances because I'm afraid people will judge me or I'll embarrass myself. I hate being the center of attention or being watched while doing something. I really can't do anything without having negative thoughts or feelings about myself, or thinking that I know what others think of me when I really don't.
Sorry for this being really long... Any thoughts?
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