Do I actually have Anxiety?

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Hey, new member here


Anyways on to the point...


I have had 3 girlfriends so far, all of which i haven't had any physical relations with. I am too scared to kiss them(on the lips), or have sex.
They all dumped me because I never made moves, and when they did, I leaned away or backed away.

Whenever I hung out with them I got REALLY nervous about if they tried to kiss me, also its REALLY hard for me to ask a girl out.
The last time I tried to ask out in person, my hands were shaking and i was EXTREMELY uncomfortable. I had to ask her out by writing it down on paper

I'm mainly scared to have sex, Im afraid of me being a bad kisser, but im also afraid of them trying to go past that.

Thing is, when I was born I had more then one opening at the end of my "Male part" (uthera), now I have many scars, I am also uncircumsized which I hear LOTS of girls dont like

And my peers make fun of me for being too old and not having kissed someone, whenever someone says 'hey come over here for a second!"
I get a gut feeling that they will say something about me not kissing someone and I get really scared and i dont go near them, i make excuses all the time to avoid it.


Also I really don't like walking outside or going in public places for fear of someone making fun of me.

But besides that, I am a very talkative person...its just when it comes to physical things with girls is when it gets bad.


As for seeking help, i'm kinda scared to go to a doctor, and my parents don't believe me when I tell them any of this(I haven't told them everything...but I have mentioned it and they just say shrug it off)

It also doesn't help when my dad thinks im getting laid left and right when he doesn't know I technially haven't really had a girlfriend, just a friend that I never did anything with that I refeered to as my girlfriend.



Also I asked out all 3 of my girlfriends, the 1st time I got SO scared i was shakin when i asked her out I have never done it that way again(in person). the 2 times after that was on paper or over phone.


Even if I hear from their friends that they will say yes and date me or whatever, I still can't do it in person I always get anxiety..


I should also say it runs on my moms side of the family, my mom rarely leaves the house, my brother seemed to have some problems when he was younger but is fine now...

I'm not exactly sure about me.



So, any comments or suggestions?

 

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Also I should note I have days where I am just depressed and think about suicide or things like that...


It hasn't happened recently, but I could have a good day and as soon as I get to bed I just feel miserable.


edit:

Would like to add for the girl thingy >_<


I don't have high standards really, i would really prefer a girl to be nicer then really hot...


To be honest the perfect girl for me would be one that is really shy and doesnt kiss and stuff like me

 

[Len]

Who told you that shit about how girls don't like an uncircumcised penis? What they going to say? Oh there is too much skin on your penis, I am not going near that!

The thing is, I don't think women care what your penis looks like as long as it does the job. Most women don't even orgasm through penetration and they prefer the use of a hand, tongue or vibrator.

OK so don't worry about what your penis looks like or scarring because girls don't actually examine your organs during sex. Remember, they might be insecure about how they look as well.

I also think the best way to get laid if you are insecure is to start with a long term relationship. You need someone you can relate to and be confident with. Not all girls are looking to jump straight into bed so find a girl who is nice and is willing to wait and get to know you first.

Also, the internet is full of information on kissing and sex education so you could try that as well.