The truth over depression as well as an idea of healing
Note: This text should be read actually only by people, who want to actually know the truth and which a guidance to search to become recovered, because I will hereby give those, it is thus at the same time a self-help guidance from depression.
People, who want to displace it rather further, should conclude here.
In addition it should be read only by people, who are ready to change their past life completely and who are ready to take the necessary time for it, which can definitely take at least 2 years.
My experienced truth is rather simple than complicated. This can do pain, since I would have wished a more complicated answer myself after suffering for so many years.
First to my motivation: In bad depressive times I also looked (among other things) on this site for the truth, in order to free me from my depression. I did not find it on this web page anywhere. In addition I read approx. 15 self-help books as well as technical literature and took medicines, but nothing of all that helped me in the end. In addition my impression consists of the fact that by a therapy healed people as well as therapists can neither help enough of the people who need psychological help nor pass on or publish the truth as far as it is necessary.
But I think that this is not only important for patients who have difficult psychological problems, but also important for the entire society, which is pulled through from depression in flowing measure up to the weight of an illness.
I refer this knowledge from my own deep-psychological psychotherapy.
The truth: The truth about depression is relatively simply and nevertheless known by hardly anyone in our society. The problem is that we are occupied more with the outside world than with our interior world, i.e. we don’t know our emotions/feelings and do not learn to deal with them, since our social surrounding fields (parents, family, friends, school etc.), into which we are born into, do not know this themselves and from there are not able to teach us in an appropriate way. The therapists, who know the truth to real reorganization and also teach it in a therapy, are in my opinion above all therapists, which work in deep-psychology and psychoanalysis.
Therapists who work on behaviour and cognitive oriented therapists (who require rethink), do not really help their patients to defeat their depression and become emotional really healthy, but only, to function in a better way, to be more able to adapt to society, to suppress their depressions in a better way. They do not disappear thereby. Medicines can partly suppress symptoms, which can be of course helpful in hard moments, the actual depression does’t disappear on a long-term basis.
Here it is said that the brain of a depressive one is not ill, it is only used in an ill way. The brain itself functions too well.
I made a deep-psychologically founded therapy and want to help people in this way, who look for assistance on this site.
Analysis of depression:
Now I will describe, how depression actually develops and how one can defeat it. I will help you to get conscious about how it runs off, because it runs off unconsciously in you.
1) Depression is an emotional problem. There are only few emotions in principle, which people have, that build up two sides in principle. On the one side the is the rage, to which pain and sadness or mourning belong to, on the other side there is joy and true interest. (true love)
2) The central problem of depression is RAGE. The depressive one (in principle almost every psychologically patient, but I don’t want to diskuss this now) directs his rage against himself and injures himself in this way.
3) He learns this behavior already as a baby from his mother (and/or primary connection person), who likewise as a child learned to direct her rage against herself as a strategy to survive.
(that means, she also adapted to a depressive personality structure)
I will now try to express the crucial nuclear conflict which leads to this strategy completely figurativy:
Present to you, you lie in a baby cradle and you are furious because of any injured need, an injury. You have the need to cry and scream, in order to lend expression to your anger. Now your mother appears and you have to realize traumatized that she is full of rage (which she directs against herself) and you feel the danger which this could mean for you. You feel: “shit, if I shout at her now, then she will strike me dead with her whole rage and I’ll die… or she will suspend me in the forest and I will die somewhere alone on my own, because I cannot run alone. I am too small in order to survive without her, i.e. I must absolutely develop a safe connection to her in order to survive.”
What will you thus do? You will not cry loud, but will direct your rage good against you in order to survive.
One can thus call depression altogether a survival strategy which once was very important to save your life.
Someone ever heard from his mother what a dear calm child he was? : -) (just an example, doesn’t have to fit to exactly everyone concerned)
4)So you grow up in a world of people, who direct their rage against themselves (I hope someday this will be not normal any more) and do not come at all toward the idea, that something runs in a wrong way. Like the other people around you you consider it as normal, because nearly all people direct their rage against themselves and go on “injuring trips”, instead of looking at and expressing their rage. Unconsciously the fact remains that expressing rage would result death.
You continue your whole life long in such a way and collect more and more rage.
If you “are lucky” you come through life to some extent and die at the age of 78. (I personally think that this is not true luck cause depression can also give you the chance to change your life into a much happier one.)
If you have however pitch, if your parents don’t treat you quiete lovely and give to you thousands of injuries, in addition you experience still different bad things (like mobbing at school, beeing abused, there are thousands of possible injuries for you in this world today, strong emotional neglect is perhaps still important to mention), and so your rage increases so that you purge into a (clinical form of) depression during your lifetime.
A depressive episode is nothing but a powerful rage accumulation. Such powerful rage accumulations seem frequently with separations of the partner (separation rage), to deaths, serious illness. Therefore one says so frequently, these circumstances are the actual cause of a depression.
In reality it is however the rage, which wants finally to come out and get expression, but may not allegedly because of surviving. That’s why many humans also fall into a depression without an acute stroke of fate, simply because their rage level is too large.
5) What happens now during a typical depressive episode, to a “first depression”, with too high rage level? To some typical symptoms:
a) Not able to stop thinking: Rage (rage is in principle nothing but energy) is used against yourself, you react to rage by building up thousands of thoughts and injure yourself in such a way. Therefore the thoughts are also above all negative. (I am not worth anything, I hate myself etc.)
b) Nightmares: I produce negative dreams for the processing of rage. Contents are negative, in order to do pain to me. (I do unconsciously, but that is me indeed)
c) Sleep disturbances: I have so much rage, that I cannot sleep.
d) Fear: I have as much rage that I threaten myself. Each fear except the healthy fear of really possible death is nothing else as rage directed against yourself in size of a self threat.
Panic attacks and fear conditions are also only rage arranged against yourself.
e) Unreal shame, guilt feelings: I actually punish myself with rage, although the others actually made/make me furious, who actually have the guilt.
If humans are ashamed, then it is always rage arranged against themselves. So if you see shame in the eyes of another one, then you know that he is also a depressive reacting person if it’s not true shame.
There is thus also healthy shame, i.e. if I actually injure other people or take them into danger. For example, it is no genuine shame, if a woman is ashamed for her large nose, because this one itself has certainly not done any real harm to anyone J
f) Indifference, (no luck feeling): If one is furious, then one does not have interest, no joy. Rage is (always) to be expressed first, then again new interest in the environment develops.
The first interest of a person consists always of getting rid of and mourning his rage/pain feelings, one can say to supply himself emotionally. Afterwards the true interest (sincere love) and the true joy in the environment appear.
This explains also the often felt lack of sense in life. Life does not have an objective sense. Each person creates himself a specific sense, by beeing interested in certain things (hobbies etc.)
If you are full of rage and thus your interest is blocked, in which way you want to feel that life seems to make sense? Only you can make sense, if you are emotionally healthy.
g) Waterless mourning: Rage blocks pain/mourning, therefore depressive ones cannot mourn and release correctly. This is (for example) also the reason for suffering from flashbacks (rough pain experiences turn back in dreams). Rage has to go, so that one can cry reasonably. (This does not mean that one can generally never cry as a depressive one.)
h) Psychosomatic complaints like e.g. trembling, feelings of cold, strange feelings in the body, complaints in the back or stomach complaints: Turns of rage against the body
i) Cutting, drugs, self-injuring behaviour of any form: Turns of rage against himself.
j) Withdraw oneself of other people: you are furious as hell and have no straight interest. Why should you go to someone? You actually don’t want to talk to anyone, as you are that angry. (This is also the explanation for much silence in the world or for that we talk frequently so little really with each other.) Rage has to go first. Everything else means injury.
6) As a depressive person you have already behaved in a depressive way since the beginning of your life in principle. You have injured yourself again and again with you rage. The joke or the important clue is the fact that you unconsciously always continue to produce your behaviour, although you continue to grow up, grow up physically and become an adult. (Consciously you do not often even know that you are furious.)
You still direct your rage against you, even at the age of 45 for example. You still protect your mother from your rage, so that she protects your life. You still live in principle for her, she is still the sense of your life, although you are an adult now.
What would happen now, if you expressed (direct to the outward) now and she would suspend you in the forest?
Nothing. You could go home out of the forest alone with your long legs and so you would also survive alone.
That means (I’m afraid, by God) that you have already wasted your life for years with this old program. You still direct your rage against you in shape of self injuries (up to the degree of symptoms) and by going on “injuring trips”, instead of taking place on a chair and listen to your rage and trying to let it go.
You do not have clear interest, neither in other people nor in something different. When one is furious, rage always stands in the front row. If one goes to friends then and you talk with one another, then that is a lying behaviour in principle in order to only put everyone’s rage against oneself, a kind of fulfilling the mission of surviving together, not more. (but not less) Real interest in the other one is not part of those moments.
This is also the reason, why so many people get separated and divorced, betray each other, don’t really trust each other and those things. One present together an injury dance, real interest between the participants is not in the room. That’s the reason.
(I do not want to state hereby that there are no more healthy people with healthy love and healthy interest. I believe however, I would have to look for these like needles in a heap of hay these days.)
7) Self-help: How can I express my rage, let the rage go? In principle it’s important to give a shape to your rage, to make it visible for you, to live it (without hurting other people). When I direct my rage against me, then I hurt myself, when I direct it against other people, then I hurt them. When I injure other people, then I injure myself, because this causes guilt feelings deep inside me. In principle each person is internal (in the core) like a small child, who loves each human being and doesn’t want to hurt anybody, neither itself nor others.
In addition I, if I have already a depression to a degree of an illness, I have as much rage in me that I could release a typhoon with it or I could murder someone or something. From there I recommend never to use it to attack and hurt other people.
Thus it is Important in the long run, not to take revenge in reality (at oneselfs parents one often wants to that with great pleasure), but to supply oneself emotionally.
One can do this for example, by expressing its rage via conception, via fantasy, via imagination. Here one can injure the people, who did pain to oneself in the past (without hurting someone in reality). For this one makes oneself pain-releasing moments in the past consciously again.
It concerns to feel/to notice your own rage in order to be able to feel the pain and sadness behind it. For example you can imagine how you put dirt on the pain-causers (f.e. with elimination products of the body), how you torment them, murder them, do all conceivable possible bad things to them you can imagine. In this case there are certainly no borders of brutal fantasy. It is important to say that I don’t think of a pure cognitive process in this case, but of an emotional one. The important thing is to FEEL your rage, because we can do many things only with our head without going into a real emotional process.
I would not like to say here that the “rage fantasy” must be the only medium to feel your rage because there are surely also different possible styles. The central point is to really FEEL your rage, to come into a positive contact with it.
8) Reorganization: Depending on how much rage you carry in you, this procedure can take up to several years, until your rage and the pain are regenerated/brought up and your interest returns, until you begin to feel REAL interest in something again, to feel true love.
In principle that’s it, whereby it is clear that the realization itself is a hard process and needs more time than to write or read this text.
I wish myself that this knowledge will achieve the entire society someday, so that there will be more love here in the future. In addition I wish that those from you, who will believe in it and not repress or displace it, which many of you will certainly do, do their own to publish it and above all: live the truth themselves.
Nice greetings
Ryan
Note: This text should be read actually only by people, who want to actually know the truth and which a guidance to search to become recovered, because I will hereby give those, it is thus at the same time a self-help guidance from depression.
People, who want to displace it rather further, should conclude here.
In addition it should be read only by people, who are ready to change their past life completely and who are ready to take the necessary time for it, which can definitely take at least 2 years.
My experienced truth is rather simple than complicated. This can do pain, since I would have wished a more complicated answer myself after suffering for so many years.
First to my motivation: In bad depressive times I also looked (among other things) on this site for the truth, in order to free me from my depression. I did not find it on this web page anywhere. In addition I read approx. 15 self-help books as well as technical literature and took medicines, but nothing of all that helped me in the end. In addition my impression consists of the fact that by a therapy healed people as well as therapists can neither help enough of the people who need psychological help nor pass on or publish the truth as far as it is necessary.
But I think that this is not only important for patients who have difficult psychological problems, but also important for the entire society, which is pulled through from depression in flowing measure up to the weight of an illness.
I refer this knowledge from my own deep-psychological psychotherapy.
The truth: The truth about depression is relatively simply and nevertheless known by hardly anyone in our society. The problem is that we are occupied more with the outside world than with our interior world, i.e. we don’t know our emotions/feelings and do not learn to deal with them, since our social surrounding fields (parents, family, friends, school etc.), into which we are born into, do not know this themselves and from there are not able to teach us in an appropriate way. The therapists, who know the truth to real reorganization and also teach it in a therapy, are in my opinion above all therapists, which work in deep-psychology and psychoanalysis.
Therapists who work on behaviour and cognitive oriented therapists (who require rethink), do not really help their patients to defeat their depression and become emotional really healthy, but only, to function in a better way, to be more able to adapt to society, to suppress their depressions in a better way. They do not disappear thereby. Medicines can partly suppress symptoms, which can be of course helpful in hard moments, the actual depression does’t disappear on a long-term basis.
Here it is said that the brain of a depressive one is not ill, it is only used in an ill way. The brain itself functions too well.
I made a deep-psychologically founded therapy and want to help people in this way, who look for assistance on this site.
Analysis of depression:
Now I will describe, how depression actually develops and how one can defeat it. I will help you to get conscious about how it runs off, because it runs off unconsciously in you.
1) Depression is an emotional problem. There are only few emotions in principle, which people have, that build up two sides in principle. On the one side the is the rage, to which pain and sadness or mourning belong to, on the other side there is joy and true interest. (true love)
2) The central problem of depression is RAGE. The depressive one (in principle almost every psychologically patient, but I don’t want to diskuss this now) directs his rage against himself and injures himself in this way.
3) He learns this behavior already as a baby from his mother (and/or primary connection person), who likewise as a child learned to direct her rage against herself as a strategy to survive.
(that means, she also adapted to a depressive personality structure)
I will now try to express the crucial nuclear conflict which leads to this strategy completely figurativy:
Present to you, you lie in a baby cradle and you are furious because of any injured need, an injury. You have the need to cry and scream, in order to lend expression to your anger. Now your mother appears and you have to realize traumatized that she is full of rage (which she directs against herself) and you feel the danger which this could mean for you. You feel: “shit, if I shout at her now, then she will strike me dead with her whole rage and I’ll die… or she will suspend me in the forest and I will die somewhere alone on my own, because I cannot run alone. I am too small in order to survive without her, i.e. I must absolutely develop a safe connection to her in order to survive.”
What will you thus do? You will not cry loud, but will direct your rage good against you in order to survive.
One can thus call depression altogether a survival strategy which once was very important to save your life.
Someone ever heard from his mother what a dear calm child he was? : -) (just an example, doesn’t have to fit to exactly everyone concerned)
4)So you grow up in a world of people, who direct their rage against themselves (I hope someday this will be not normal any more) and do not come at all toward the idea, that something runs in a wrong way. Like the other people around you you consider it as normal, because nearly all people direct their rage against themselves and go on “injuring trips”, instead of looking at and expressing their rage. Unconsciously the fact remains that expressing rage would result death.
You continue your whole life long in such a way and collect more and more rage.
If you “are lucky” you come through life to some extent and die at the age of 78. (I personally think that this is not true luck cause depression can also give you the chance to change your life into a much happier one.)
If you have however pitch, if your parents don’t treat you quiete lovely and give to you thousands of injuries, in addition you experience still different bad things (like mobbing at school, beeing abused, there are thousands of possible injuries for you in this world today, strong emotional neglect is perhaps still important to mention), and so your rage increases so that you purge into a (clinical form of) depression during your lifetime.
A depressive episode is nothing but a powerful rage accumulation. Such powerful rage accumulations seem frequently with separations of the partner (separation rage), to deaths, serious illness. Therefore one says so frequently, these circumstances are the actual cause of a depression.
In reality it is however the rage, which wants finally to come out and get expression, but may not allegedly because of surviving. That’s why many humans also fall into a depression without an acute stroke of fate, simply because their rage level is too large.
5) What happens now during a typical depressive episode, to a “first depression”, with too high rage level? To some typical symptoms:
a) Not able to stop thinking: Rage (rage is in principle nothing but energy) is used against yourself, you react to rage by building up thousands of thoughts and injure yourself in such a way. Therefore the thoughts are also above all negative. (I am not worth anything, I hate myself etc.)
b) Nightmares: I produce negative dreams for the processing of rage. Contents are negative, in order to do pain to me. (I do unconsciously, but that is me indeed)
c) Sleep disturbances: I have so much rage, that I cannot sleep.
d) Fear: I have as much rage that I threaten myself. Each fear except the healthy fear of really possible death is nothing else as rage directed against yourself in size of a self threat.
Panic attacks and fear conditions are also only rage arranged against yourself.
e) Unreal shame, guilt feelings: I actually punish myself with rage, although the others actually made/make me furious, who actually have the guilt.
If humans are ashamed, then it is always rage arranged against themselves. So if you see shame in the eyes of another one, then you know that he is also a depressive reacting person if it’s not true shame.
There is thus also healthy shame, i.e. if I actually injure other people or take them into danger. For example, it is no genuine shame, if a woman is ashamed for her large nose, because this one itself has certainly not done any real harm to anyone J
f) Indifference, (no luck feeling): If one is furious, then one does not have interest, no joy. Rage is (always) to be expressed first, then again new interest in the environment develops.
The first interest of a person consists always of getting rid of and mourning his rage/pain feelings, one can say to supply himself emotionally. Afterwards the true interest (sincere love) and the true joy in the environment appear.
This explains also the often felt lack of sense in life. Life does not have an objective sense. Each person creates himself a specific sense, by beeing interested in certain things (hobbies etc.)
If you are full of rage and thus your interest is blocked, in which way you want to feel that life seems to make sense? Only you can make sense, if you are emotionally healthy.
g) Waterless mourning: Rage blocks pain/mourning, therefore depressive ones cannot mourn and release correctly. This is (for example) also the reason for suffering from flashbacks (rough pain experiences turn back in dreams). Rage has to go, so that one can cry reasonably. (This does not mean that one can generally never cry as a depressive one.)
h) Psychosomatic complaints like e.g. trembling, feelings of cold, strange feelings in the body, complaints in the back or stomach complaints: Turns of rage against the body
i) Cutting, drugs, self-injuring behaviour of any form: Turns of rage against himself.
j) Withdraw oneself of other people: you are furious as hell and have no straight interest. Why should you go to someone? You actually don’t want to talk to anyone, as you are that angry. (This is also the explanation for much silence in the world or for that we talk frequently so little really with each other.) Rage has to go first. Everything else means injury.
6) As a depressive person you have already behaved in a depressive way since the beginning of your life in principle. You have injured yourself again and again with you rage. The joke or the important clue is the fact that you unconsciously always continue to produce your behaviour, although you continue to grow up, grow up physically and become an adult. (Consciously you do not often even know that you are furious.)
You still direct your rage against you, even at the age of 45 for example. You still protect your mother from your rage, so that she protects your life. You still live in principle for her, she is still the sense of your life, although you are an adult now.
What would happen now, if you expressed (direct to the outward) now and she would suspend you in the forest?
Nothing. You could go home out of the forest alone with your long legs and so you would also survive alone.
That means (I’m afraid, by God) that you have already wasted your life for years with this old program. You still direct your rage against you in shape of self injuries (up to the degree of symptoms) and by going on “injuring trips”, instead of taking place on a chair and listen to your rage and trying to let it go.
You do not have clear interest, neither in other people nor in something different. When one is furious, rage always stands in the front row. If one goes to friends then and you talk with one another, then that is a lying behaviour in principle in order to only put everyone’s rage against oneself, a kind of fulfilling the mission of surviving together, not more. (but not less) Real interest in the other one is not part of those moments.
This is also the reason, why so many people get separated and divorced, betray each other, don’t really trust each other and those things. One present together an injury dance, real interest between the participants is not in the room. That’s the reason.
(I do not want to state hereby that there are no more healthy people with healthy love and healthy interest. I believe however, I would have to look for these like needles in a heap of hay these days.)
7) Self-help: How can I express my rage, let the rage go? In principle it’s important to give a shape to your rage, to make it visible for you, to live it (without hurting other people). When I direct my rage against me, then I hurt myself, when I direct it against other people, then I hurt them. When I injure other people, then I injure myself, because this causes guilt feelings deep inside me. In principle each person is internal (in the core) like a small child, who loves each human being and doesn’t want to hurt anybody, neither itself nor others.
In addition I, if I have already a depression to a degree of an illness, I have as much rage in me that I could release a typhoon with it or I could murder someone or something. From there I recommend never to use it to attack and hurt other people.
Thus it is Important in the long run, not to take revenge in reality (at oneselfs parents one often wants to that with great pleasure), but to supply oneself emotionally.
One can do this for example, by expressing its rage via conception, via fantasy, via imagination. Here one can injure the people, who did pain to oneself in the past (without hurting someone in reality). For this one makes oneself pain-releasing moments in the past consciously again.
It concerns to feel/to notice your own rage in order to be able to feel the pain and sadness behind it. For example you can imagine how you put dirt on the pain-causers (f.e. with elimination products of the body), how you torment them, murder them, do all conceivable possible bad things to them you can imagine. In this case there are certainly no borders of brutal fantasy. It is important to say that I don’t think of a pure cognitive process in this case, but of an emotional one. The important thing is to FEEL your rage, because we can do many things only with our head without going into a real emotional process.
I would not like to say here that the “rage fantasy” must be the only medium to feel your rage because there are surely also different possible styles. The central point is to really FEEL your rage, to come into a positive contact with it.
8) Reorganization: Depending on how much rage you carry in you, this procedure can take up to several years, until your rage and the pain are regenerated/brought up and your interest returns, until you begin to feel REAL interest in something again, to feel true love.
In principle that’s it, whereby it is clear that the realization itself is a hard process and needs more time than to write or read this text.
I wish myself that this knowledge will achieve the entire society someday, so that there will be more love here in the future. In addition I wish that those from you, who will believe in it and not repress or displace it, which many of you will certainly do, do their own to publish it and above all: live the truth themselves.
Nice greetings
Ryan