Critical point in my life...

Andreas84

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Social Anxiety... How I hate you.

Hello everyone! This is my first and possibly last post on this forum. My name is Andreas, I'm 29 and I've dealt with social anxiety issues for most of my life.

I'm soon to be 30 and it seems like a lot of things have been bubbling up over the last few months. I'm not going to bore you with the details of how it has affected my life because I'm sure you've heard/read the same things over and over. Truth be told, I'm actually way further along then I give myself credit for most of the time. It's just that there are certain things in my life that are still lacking that make me feel bad such as lack of relationship and never having been in one as well not having much of a social life.

As I said, it's started to really hit me hard over the last few months. All of the things that I've missed out and neglected simply because I've let my fear and anxiety control me. Countless opportunities in the past, even as recent as a few months ago, that I avoided simply because I was afraid to take a chance.

It's really started to dawn on me that I need to start making some changes in my life. I've always had this feeling that things would magically get better on their own and I'd change over night. That I would be able to overcome all of my fears the older I got and would live a happy life.

That simply is not the case. This is going to require effort and hard work to overcome and I realize that now. There aren't any movie moments that make things better just like that. It's something I need to work at!

I've started to do a lot of things that I've been neglecting over the last few years. I joined a gym again, started booking doctors appointments, have decided to eat better. I also decided to start taking some cooking classes and night courses! It's time to start putting myself out there!

One thing I've realized... When you don't take any chances in life, it feels much worse to live with regret rather then putting yourself out there and potentially making a goof of yourself. At least you can say you took a shot!

I wasted my 20's living in fear, letting my anxiety control me. There is no way in hell I waste my 30's.

Life ain't over. It's just beginning.

Take care and good luck everyone!
 
Good thing you've decided to make changes. You didn't really waste your 20s, you gained lots of wisdom. I guarantee you are a stronger person for it. And you know things many people have yet to discover. Take life one day at a time.
 
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