nocklmnop
Active member
hello.
For the past five years, I have been falling deeper and deeper into reclusiveness. I am not sure if this was/is caused by mostly depression, or if it is social anxiety and depression. I recently started going to a technical college, so that does help me, in the sense that I am getting out. But I only go because I feel obligated to go.
Other than college, I leave my house about once every two months, if that. And when I do, it is only for very short periods of time. The only time I spend with people is when my eighteen year-old nephew visits once every few months. And I live with my mom, so I see her everyday, but our relationship isn't quite as great as it could be. I honestly cannot remember the last time I did anything with a friend. Which is probably why the only friends I have are online.
I barely eat (about the equivalent of a cheeseburger everyday), and I am very pale and skinny. Or so my mom says. But I don't believe I am annorexic or bulemic. I also only sleep for about 3 hours, sometimes two, everyday.
I have two friends on yahoo messenger, so I do manage to talk to people sometimes, but that just isn't the same as face-to-face conversation with people you actually know. Even though I am scared to death of face-to-face conversation, it does have its benefits.
What I am confused about is what it is that I am experiencing. Have I become so depressed that I just lack emotion? It does feel that way. Is this common, or is there anybody else here who is the same way as I am?
I am not sure what exactly it is that I am asking for in a reply. Any reply would do though.
For the past five years, I have been falling deeper and deeper into reclusiveness. I am not sure if this was/is caused by mostly depression, or if it is social anxiety and depression. I recently started going to a technical college, so that does help me, in the sense that I am getting out. But I only go because I feel obligated to go.
Other than college, I leave my house about once every two months, if that. And when I do, it is only for very short periods of time. The only time I spend with people is when my eighteen year-old nephew visits once every few months. And I live with my mom, so I see her everyday, but our relationship isn't quite as great as it could be. I honestly cannot remember the last time I did anything with a friend. Which is probably why the only friends I have are online.
I barely eat (about the equivalent of a cheeseburger everyday), and I am very pale and skinny. Or so my mom says. But I don't believe I am annorexic or bulemic. I also only sleep for about 3 hours, sometimes two, everyday.
I have two friends on yahoo messenger, so I do manage to talk to people sometimes, but that just isn't the same as face-to-face conversation with people you actually know. Even though I am scared to death of face-to-face conversation, it does have its benefits.
What I am confused about is what it is that I am experiencing. Have I become so depressed that I just lack emotion? It does feel that way. Is this common, or is there anybody else here who is the same way as I am?
I am not sure what exactly it is that I am asking for in a reply. Any reply would do though.
