sycamoretree
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Hi, im suffering from something that doesnt exactly fit to the definition of OCD, but im thinking it might be it or even have a lot incommon with OCD. All the psychiatrists i've been to, have told me im having OCD, but they never seem to really get what i mean when i'm explaining about my problem. As you can probably see from my text, i don't speak english as my mother language; im here because nobody really got me on the message boards i've been writing to either.
Basically the problem is that whenever I do or think of something bad or feel kind of weird about some things, I have a need to “confess” this to somebody. A bit silly one, but for example if I happen to flirt with somebody I shouldn’t, like my brother’s girlfriend, (and it doesn’t have to be that serious flirting that some might think) it would feel like **** and the only way to get rid of that feeling is to tell my brother what I did, even though it was not that big of a deal at all. Or it could be something like if I felt something that I think is not so normal or weird (and has often something to do with my sexuality) I would have to go and ask my brother if it was normal or not. And although I keep telling myself that those are more likely very usual thoughts and it wouldn’t be a biggie if they weren’t, I just don’t get it out of my mind without telling someone. (that someone is usually the person im able to tell this kinds of things, but it can be the last person I wanna tell this kind of things too.. hard to explain.) But I think the main thing now is that even though I understand how ****ed up it is to share this kinds of thoughts with people, those bad thoughts won’t stop annoying me until I tell them to the person I need to.
This might sound like I am having some sort of oversensitive conscience, but it’s not about that. Those thoughts can also be that kind of things that I don’t want to share with anybody because they're simply just embarrassing and not anything wrong or bad. Those thoughts don’t bother me that much though.
If anyone has any knowledge of this kind of problem, I would be very very thankful if it could be shared here or privately. Also all kinds of thoughts about my situation and advice where to get help are welcome.
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I copy-pasted that from http://www.ocdforums.org/index.php?showtopic=38144 where I posted that a week ago. I've been answering to those who replied and there might be something that could expand my story.
Basically the problem is that whenever I do or think of something bad or feel kind of weird about some things, I have a need to “confess” this to somebody. A bit silly one, but for example if I happen to flirt with somebody I shouldn’t, like my brother’s girlfriend, (and it doesn’t have to be that serious flirting that some might think) it would feel like **** and the only way to get rid of that feeling is to tell my brother what I did, even though it was not that big of a deal at all. Or it could be something like if I felt something that I think is not so normal or weird (and has often something to do with my sexuality) I would have to go and ask my brother if it was normal or not. And although I keep telling myself that those are more likely very usual thoughts and it wouldn’t be a biggie if they weren’t, I just don’t get it out of my mind without telling someone. (that someone is usually the person im able to tell this kinds of things, but it can be the last person I wanna tell this kind of things too.. hard to explain.) But I think the main thing now is that even though I understand how ****ed up it is to share this kinds of thoughts with people, those bad thoughts won’t stop annoying me until I tell them to the person I need to.
This might sound like I am having some sort of oversensitive conscience, but it’s not about that. Those thoughts can also be that kind of things that I don’t want to share with anybody because they're simply just embarrassing and not anything wrong or bad. Those thoughts don’t bother me that much though.
If anyone has any knowledge of this kind of problem, I would be very very thankful if it could be shared here or privately. Also all kinds of thoughts about my situation and advice where to get help are welcome.
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I copy-pasted that from http://www.ocdforums.org/index.php?showtopic=38144 where I posted that a week ago. I've been answering to those who replied and there might be something that could expand my story.
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