Have you ever felt that there's a "doom" waiting for you out of nowhere?
I felt that way since 4th yr college. Especially when there are happenings that gives me too much pleasure.
Okay so you think I'm paranoid, or just too overwhelmed.
I can't explain in words, but I'll try to narrate what I mean by this "feeling" or "intuition" or "whatever"
Since 4th yr college:
- I was able to receive a big sum of money and I was able to buy all the things I like from that amount
- My dad brought me an Ipod (my biggest wish of all)
- My looks improved (because I now had the money to buy my "own" clothes and get a new haircut)
- I became like an instant celebrity of the moth last Valentines because of the mystery "white roses" (although I don't like
the attention)
- I became noticeable.... I consistently received praises
- My computer "came back to life" plus unlimited internet (the love of my life)
- My family became more cheerful, active, lively, "everything positive"
- And my graduation was one more thing to celebrate!
*Okay so you might think that all I've mentioned are just normal/nothing special but those are new and brighter things in my life. It's like a pattern, that those things would happen to me consistently. And so I'm like: "This is too good to be true. What's the consequence behind this?" There's a gut feeling inside me saying that a "bad thing" will happen after this. Or maybe I'm just too pessimistic.
But here's the story (after I graduated)
- My dad was dismissed from his job because of a health problem
- We now lack money so we're cost cutting and now our usual lifestyle also changed
(it's like "WHAM!" now we're in a downstate")
- Our large TV just stopped working
- I'm pressured to find a job ASAP
- We're afraid that my sister will have to stop next semester
- My family became gloomy, sad, anxious... even our house became unusually dark
- Nearby houses were started to be demolished (and we're afraid that we will be included too)
- And now my parents is in the hospital for a check up because my dad is feeling weak!
*And now I have this feeling that much worse will come! I don't even know why it's happening to us.
It is so consistent, so coincidential! I dunno! I'm not even a psychic! It's like a nightmare!
I felt that way since 4th yr college. Especially when there are happenings that gives me too much pleasure.
Okay so you think I'm paranoid, or just too overwhelmed.
I can't explain in words, but I'll try to narrate what I mean by this "feeling" or "intuition" or "whatever"
Since 4th yr college:
- I was able to receive a big sum of money and I was able to buy all the things I like from that amount
- My dad brought me an Ipod (my biggest wish of all)
- My looks improved (because I now had the money to buy my "own" clothes and get a new haircut)
- I became like an instant celebrity of the moth last Valentines because of the mystery "white roses" (although I don't like
the attention)
- I became noticeable.... I consistently received praises
- My computer "came back to life" plus unlimited internet (the love of my life)
- My family became more cheerful, active, lively, "everything positive"
- And my graduation was one more thing to celebrate!
*Okay so you might think that all I've mentioned are just normal/nothing special but those are new and brighter things in my life. It's like a pattern, that those things would happen to me consistently. And so I'm like: "This is too good to be true. What's the consequence behind this?" There's a gut feeling inside me saying that a "bad thing" will happen after this. Or maybe I'm just too pessimistic.
But here's the story (after I graduated)
- My dad was dismissed from his job because of a health problem
- We now lack money so we're cost cutting and now our usual lifestyle also changed
(it's like "WHAM!" now we're in a downstate")
- Our large TV just stopped working
- I'm pressured to find a job ASAP
- We're afraid that my sister will have to stop next semester
- My family became gloomy, sad, anxious... even our house became unusually dark
- Nearby houses were started to be demolished (and we're afraid that we will be included too)
- And now my parents is in the hospital for a check up because my dad is feeling weak!
*And now I have this feeling that much worse will come! I don't even know why it's happening to us.
It is so consistent, so coincidential! I dunno! I'm not even a psychic! It's like a nightmare!
