ricky
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hey people! im knew to this and i will try to keep it as short as pos so here it goes.
My story (as cut down as pos)
Im 18 and been sufferin from SA for round 7 years now where i get a sickness in my stomach that was the most unpleasent feeling ever. At high school i didn't no exactly what i had i just thought i had an illness that would pass. I wanted to go to the doctor but everytime i planned to go i would feel fine, so good that i could never imagine me ever feeling sick. When people asked me to go places i would always worry about it and say i didn't want to go, but i would never no y i would worry and becuase of this i never had ne close friends. I always felt alone and would avoid as many situations as possible.
Now that im in college i understand everything but still i am no better. My biggest fear is me being sick in public or in front of my friends, which i think originated from me gettin travel sick, an this crosses my mind everytime im with them when i cant escape like on a bus sumwhere. I also feel it if im being relide on to do something, thats y my relationships hav never lasted long. An its the constant thinking about what could happen if im sick that actually makes me sick. I try to avoid having to go places with friends or i will make my own way there but get there an hour early just to make sure no1 will b gettin the same bus. Depending on what we are doing i could be panicing about the place we are going as well tho. When i drink alcohol i get incredibley sick as well which stops be wanting to socialise more, or if i eat to much so i try not to eat b4 having to go out. Its not that im shy, when i dont feel worried i can talk to random people. I have felt so depressed sumtimes because i feel like im wasting my life not being able to do what i want, my doctor has putting me on this stress course which i really dont think will work because im a clear headed person, and i hardly get stressed so y will sum breathin exercise work. Its hard to describe how i feel right now because this it one of the times that i am totally calm and its like all the anxiety has just been forgotten. I've gotten used to having it now, i cant imagine me not having it and how life would be so easy without it. I try to see it as a challenge and just hope that i will be better. It is very hard to get thru because i have aload of other probs as well, this isn't helpin, my grades are just going down at col an i worry about going to uni about being surrounded by so many people in lectures.
Question
I feel so lucky having so many friends now at college if it weren't for them i think i would have taken an easy way out when i was depressed and i want to tell them about it because i dont want them to think im avoiding them and things. Also it could help be feel more relaxed around them. I dont no how to tell them tho, i dont want to pile it all on them so its arkward and i dont feel i can tell every1 at once. How should i tell them?
congrats if u got thru it! an thanks if u can help me
xxrick xx
My story (as cut down as pos)
Im 18 and been sufferin from SA for round 7 years now where i get a sickness in my stomach that was the most unpleasent feeling ever. At high school i didn't no exactly what i had i just thought i had an illness that would pass. I wanted to go to the doctor but everytime i planned to go i would feel fine, so good that i could never imagine me ever feeling sick. When people asked me to go places i would always worry about it and say i didn't want to go, but i would never no y i would worry and becuase of this i never had ne close friends. I always felt alone and would avoid as many situations as possible.
Now that im in college i understand everything but still i am no better. My biggest fear is me being sick in public or in front of my friends, which i think originated from me gettin travel sick, an this crosses my mind everytime im with them when i cant escape like on a bus sumwhere. I also feel it if im being relide on to do something, thats y my relationships hav never lasted long. An its the constant thinking about what could happen if im sick that actually makes me sick. I try to avoid having to go places with friends or i will make my own way there but get there an hour early just to make sure no1 will b gettin the same bus. Depending on what we are doing i could be panicing about the place we are going as well tho. When i drink alcohol i get incredibley sick as well which stops be wanting to socialise more, or if i eat to much so i try not to eat b4 having to go out. Its not that im shy, when i dont feel worried i can talk to random people. I have felt so depressed sumtimes because i feel like im wasting my life not being able to do what i want, my doctor has putting me on this stress course which i really dont think will work because im a clear headed person, and i hardly get stressed so y will sum breathin exercise work. Its hard to describe how i feel right now because this it one of the times that i am totally calm and its like all the anxiety has just been forgotten. I've gotten used to having it now, i cant imagine me not having it and how life would be so easy without it. I try to see it as a challenge and just hope that i will be better. It is very hard to get thru because i have aload of other probs as well, this isn't helpin, my grades are just going down at col an i worry about going to uni about being surrounded by so many people in lectures.
Question
I feel so lucky having so many friends now at college if it weren't for them i think i would have taken an easy way out when i was depressed and i want to tell them about it because i dont want them to think im avoiding them and things. Also it could help be feel more relaxed around them. I dont no how to tell them tho, i dont want to pile it all on them so its arkward and i dont feel i can tell every1 at once. How should i tell them?
congrats if u got thru it! an thanks if u can help me
xxrick xx
