youhatemyusername
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With the holiday season upon us, as much as I want to feel joyful, I always feel awful because I get so stressed out about buying gifts for those I care about around me. Will it be too cheap? Too expensive? Will it wind up being something the person doesn't want? Already has? Are they going to think less of me as a result of not buying the perfect gift? It's tears me up sometimes, because I feel so much pressure of rejection if I buy the wrong gift, and too often it causes me to buy nothing at all, which I sometimes feel is better than buying something they don't want, even though I know it my heart that that's wrong. Sometimes I wish I could just read peoples minds; then I could know exactly what to get them, but I'm always too afraid to ask directly. I wish there were easy answers; I wish it was easy for me to express to those I care about how much they mean to me. If I only knew what people wanted , I would gladly go that extra mile to make sure they got that gift they wanted.
Anyways, that's enough of my ramblings. I'm hoping everyone who reads this has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Anyways, that's enough of my ramblings. I'm hoping everyone who reads this has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
