Vincent
Banned
I have two generations of people I know by sight and name, presumably they remember me. Some have accepted my adds in Facebook, through others I know ~ ha, piggybacking.'
Its all bullshit though, I mean they are not really friends or anything anyway, but you get to see where all non SA are people with their lives since.
I say two generations, cos its people from high school, then through the Halls of Residence at Uni.
Why are the demons buried given that Ive just been pouring over popular, happy shiny people, their globe trotting and party photo albums?
I don't know,..Im just not hurting as much as I expect. Somehow my jealousy is less. I think that they all look happy and enjoying life, and Im not really, but still, no pangs of envy. Perhaps Im too tired, Im up supposed to be cramming for a psych exam in a couple of hours, its 3.45am and Im well over the limit of Lift Plus cans.
I posted on my profile that I have have struggled with social anxiety disorder all my life. Have had corresponding depression, a lack of self identity and splintered personalities.
I feel proud of my SAD! I am functioning despite of it. I promote knowledge of our disease.
I dont feel jealous of others' popularity because they dont struggle with socializing, its second nature to them, cos they learned it as babies. Life is so much easier for non-SAers don't you think?
My two cents, back to the grind....psych research methods and another can of Lift, a bottle of Coke, and Gorillazs playin
-Vince.
:wink:
Its all bullshit though, I mean they are not really friends or anything anyway, but you get to see where all non SA are people with their lives since.
I say two generations, cos its people from high school, then through the Halls of Residence at Uni.
Why are the demons buried given that Ive just been pouring over popular, happy shiny people, their globe trotting and party photo albums?
I don't know,..Im just not hurting as much as I expect. Somehow my jealousy is less. I think that they all look happy and enjoying life, and Im not really, but still, no pangs of envy. Perhaps Im too tired, Im up supposed to be cramming for a psych exam in a couple of hours, its 3.45am and Im well over the limit of Lift Plus cans.
I posted on my profile that I have have struggled with social anxiety disorder all my life. Have had corresponding depression, a lack of self identity and splintered personalities.
I feel proud of my SAD! I am functioning despite of it. I promote knowledge of our disease.
I dont feel jealous of others' popularity because they dont struggle with socializing, its second nature to them, cos they learned it as babies. Life is so much easier for non-SAers don't you think?
My two cents, back to the grind....psych research methods and another can of Lift, a bottle of Coke, and Gorillazs playin
-Vince.
:wink:
