galigator8509
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This is a poem about me, I have Borderline Personality Disorder.
Where are the colors, where is the grey?
Thoughts of black and white are all I can convey.
I see two extremes, love or hate.
My mind always changing, continually on debate.
My emotions arent even on the brink of stable.
Happy, sad, angry, depressed are all easily able.
My life is filled with confusion, even instability.
Suffering through each day simply feels like impossibility.
The scars on my body are hard to hide.
But the sharp shiny razor made me feel good inside.
Id carve away at the skin Id see unaffected.
I wish I had left my body alone, respected.
One minute ill be fine, the next insanely mean.
The way I act in others minds may seem obscene.
What happens in my mind I cannot control.
I feel like the devil, whos life has been stole.
I freak out on my mom, who asks a simple question.
Instead of just answering I lash out in aggression.
Thats not the way she necessarily should be treated.
Theres just a switch inside that flicks to make me so heated.
My boyfriend, and I get into unimportant fights.
It seems we both always think we are right.
My anger gets the best of me, and I cant just let it go.
Instead I throw a fit, rather than saying I forgo.
I cry over everything, and take things the wrong way.
Criticism is unbearable, its as though im being betrayed.
If only I could handle what little still remains.
Although it seems im tied, shackled in chains.
Impulsive behavior is all that I have known.
The last thing I want to do is fight this alone.
I do things that are considered extreme.
I have no self worth, and low self esteem.
Its easy for people to sit back and judge.
Those are the people for which I hold a grudge.
Try walking in my shoes for not even a week.
I guarantee after a few hours you will begin to freak.
This disorder I have considers me mentally ill.
Im classified as a borderline, and its taken me downhill.
Its not easy having something control who you are.
I know im here in reality, but I just seem so afar.
Where are the colors, where is the grey?
Thoughts of black and white are all I can convey.
I see two extremes, love or hate.
My mind always changing, continually on debate.
My emotions arent even on the brink of stable.
Happy, sad, angry, depressed are all easily able.
My life is filled with confusion, even instability.
Suffering through each day simply feels like impossibility.
The scars on my body are hard to hide.
But the sharp shiny razor made me feel good inside.
Id carve away at the skin Id see unaffected.
I wish I had left my body alone, respected.
One minute ill be fine, the next insanely mean.
The way I act in others minds may seem obscene.
What happens in my mind I cannot control.
I feel like the devil, whos life has been stole.
I freak out on my mom, who asks a simple question.
Instead of just answering I lash out in aggression.
Thats not the way she necessarily should be treated.
Theres just a switch inside that flicks to make me so heated.
My boyfriend, and I get into unimportant fights.
It seems we both always think we are right.
My anger gets the best of me, and I cant just let it go.
Instead I throw a fit, rather than saying I forgo.
I cry over everything, and take things the wrong way.
Criticism is unbearable, its as though im being betrayed.
If only I could handle what little still remains.
Although it seems im tied, shackled in chains.
Impulsive behavior is all that I have known.
The last thing I want to do is fight this alone.
I do things that are considered extreme.
I have no self worth, and low self esteem.
Its easy for people to sit back and judge.
Those are the people for which I hold a grudge.
Try walking in my shoes for not even a week.
I guarantee after a few hours you will begin to freak.
This disorder I have considers me mentally ill.
Im classified as a borderline, and its taken me downhill.
Its not easy having something control who you are.
I know im here in reality, but I just seem so afar.
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