blubs
Well-known member
A friend of mine from this site recently asked me about my school days & experience of SA. I wrote a bit about them & although it was a LONG time ago I realised I'd never talked about them before...so I thought it was time to get them off my chest.
So here I go...
I was bullied all through secondary school. To understand why I accepted it for so many years I have to remember that, when I started secondary school, I was already withdrawn & had no self worth because of my homelife.
Soon after starting 'big school', my best friend & I were asked on a date by 2 boys in the year above. We said no...as we were so young & had never been on a date (we still played hide & seek at break!). Shortly after that the 2 boys started shouting insults at us...they were fairly tame..& we shouted back at first & laughed about it.
Over a few months it escalated...they began calling us lesbians...which obviously now I can see is no big deal...but at the time seemed terrible. They singled me out more (probably because I was weaker & showed more signs of stress)
Every time the bell went....& hundreds of kids would be jostling through the school corridors they would see me & yell 'LES!' 'LES!' 'LES!' until they had peoples attention & then they'd point me out (they didn't know my name)
I'd be terrified & humiliated & tearful. Break & lunch were the same. We stopped going to the cafeteria & had crisps everyday instead of a meal. We spent all our breaks in a little gap between the carparks & the back of the science building.
It got worse over the years....with other people from their year joining in. I felt hunted & ashamed all the time...& became unable to be the center of attention for any reason.
The bullying lasted until they left the 6th form...
Amazingly...I managed to keep the same friends through school & we had a lot of fun everyday..despite being bullied. It was only when I left school at 18 that the extent of the damage showed...as without my friends I was unable to mix with anyone new...& over the years have become more & more isolated.
So thats my little Tale of Woe..
Luckily I have a strong relationship with my boyfriend now & a baby on the way...so I have a lot to be happy about.
If you've read this far...hats off to you! Its written more for the writing than the reading...but thanks if you have read it.
Its time to post it off & be done with it. For good.
So here I go...
I was bullied all through secondary school. To understand why I accepted it for so many years I have to remember that, when I started secondary school, I was already withdrawn & had no self worth because of my homelife.
Soon after starting 'big school', my best friend & I were asked on a date by 2 boys in the year above. We said no...as we were so young & had never been on a date (we still played hide & seek at break!). Shortly after that the 2 boys started shouting insults at us...they were fairly tame..& we shouted back at first & laughed about it.
Over a few months it escalated...they began calling us lesbians...which obviously now I can see is no big deal...but at the time seemed terrible. They singled me out more (probably because I was weaker & showed more signs of stress)
Every time the bell went....& hundreds of kids would be jostling through the school corridors they would see me & yell 'LES!' 'LES!' 'LES!' until they had peoples attention & then they'd point me out (they didn't know my name)
I'd be terrified & humiliated & tearful. Break & lunch were the same. We stopped going to the cafeteria & had crisps everyday instead of a meal. We spent all our breaks in a little gap between the carparks & the back of the science building.
It got worse over the years....with other people from their year joining in. I felt hunted & ashamed all the time...& became unable to be the center of attention for any reason.
The bullying lasted until they left the 6th form...
Amazingly...I managed to keep the same friends through school & we had a lot of fun everyday..despite being bullied. It was only when I left school at 18 that the extent of the damage showed...as without my friends I was unable to mix with anyone new...& over the years have become more & more isolated.
So thats my little Tale of Woe..
Luckily I have a strong relationship with my boyfriend now & a baby on the way...so I have a lot to be happy about.
If you've read this far...hats off to you! Its written more for the writing than the reading...but thanks if you have read it.
Its time to post it off & be done with it. For good.
