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[happypants2]

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[happypants2]

less jumbled version

ok so that version is jumbled and all over the place.

i guess the main thing i was asking is, I feel that something I used to do hindered my SA in a large way: sometimes, since i was sick of being afraid, I would kind of trick myself into being overly outgoing, where I would feel kind of in an extacy (kind of cracked out I suppose I would say looking back on it), I would give myself a false sense of confidence, I would kind of pump myself up, and not be aware of consequences of my actions, and I would violently push away any anxious thoughts. eventually I was unable to do this anymore. which makes perfect sense, as it would be impossible to do this all the time. i think that maybe it is this harmful behavior that people with social anxiety engaged in in one point of their lives and seperates them from people who are just shy.

does this sound familiar to anyone? i am wondering. any input is welcome.

 

[cloudy]

i can definately relate to that. i also used to pump myself up, and act like i was this easy confident person. but as you said, it didn't last long and made me feel worse after. i did this many times before i knew about SA.

 

[happypants2]

thanks for the input

hey, thanks for the reply. its good to know that I wasn't the only person who did this.