Being a new parent, and lots of my other worries...

new_mom_09

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Hi, I just joined.
I am concerned about my lack of friends and its effect on my baby once she is born. I am afraid she will not have any friends like me and she will be sad/lonely when she gets older.
I am sad that I may not provide the social interaction that she needs to be a normal child. I worry that she will absorb my anxiety like a sponge.
She will be born in January (hopefully no sooner).
I wasn't always like this, I attribute my problem to PTSD-- I changed dramatically after an event that happened in my life when I was a teenager; I lost my friends and my ability to make friends almost immediately. I am still upset about it, it has been 8 years since the event, but I feel like I will never get better. All my anxiety is focused on personal relationships.
I kind of have a weird social phobia. I don't mind initiated conversations with new people but after the first interaction, my social anxiety just kicks in and I get very self-conscious; I focus more on my anxiety than the conversation.
Besides my worries about my baby and lack of friendships, I worry about my new marriage and my relationship with my parents.
Lately, I've been feeling trapped and suffocated by my fears. I don't know if my hormones are causing or exacerbating this, since I am pregnant. I don't tell anyone but my counselor. I feel like my mind is all over the place-- I think this is a symptom of anxiety, a lack of concentration.
I hope that being a member here will give me some comfort, it seems to work for at least some people, as I am reading.
Anyway, my question is, anyone here have/had the same anxiety over being a parent and having SA or any of the other things I have mentioned?
 
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