Beginning to hate myself for the way I'm...

[nope1]

Man, I'm beginning to hate myself for the way I am now...

I feel as if I'm insecure... don't trust myself... I don't talk about myself...
I became this non-confident like person who only makes jokes... who can't reveille himself (I don't even know MYSELF!!!!!) I mean... It's like, my life is a joke!!! I only make stupid jokes... sure, they laugh... but at the end... They just move on to something and I feel left out...

it's like I'm the guy who is nice, going to do anything for his friends... but then, at the end, you feel left out... I just... want things to change....
I want to become this confident person who can handle things in life... who make CONFIDENT jokes... Who knows where he's going...

I don't even know where the F@#$@% I'm headed. I'm studying to go to university but... I don't even know what the @#$ I want to study...

Damn, I'm lost in this life... I'm just living it "Au jour le jour", day by day but... this is pissing me off! I don't have a purpose in life...

Sorry, this is just little rant... Because I've had enough and want things to change...

 

[mienaino]

Because I've had enough and want things to change...

Life has a funny way of making that happen. And change is already happening, even if you don't realize it.