Arghhhh

[kerplunk]

this sa is driving me insane
i cant do nothing for myself
with no friends for years and no job
it feels like pain but not psyical
im always upset / depressed and right now i feel rock bottom
and getting angry and feel like going out and beating up anyone who pisses me off just because everyone thinks im nothing :evil:

 

[brownbag]

i almost always feel this way.
and yes i'd rather much suffer from a physical ailment than this mental anguish.
i wish there could be something created to allow other people to actually see the sa, like they can see when other people are injured or suffering from sickness. the frustrating part i believe is that people can't see the sa and therefore don't recognise that we're suffering from anything, and therefore never sympathise at all, thinking we're just fools...
damn this condition.

 

[boodizm]

I think the only advice I can offer is that when I was at a stage similar to yours I decided that if I was at rock bottom then it could'nt get much worse. With that in my head I made decisions to take risks and throw myself in the deep end on a number of occaisions, that was what eventually led me to turn around and walk/crawl back up the hill. I was doing this before though I was doing it scared stiff of failure rather than believing in success or improvement.

yeh and the worst thing is when they make you feel guilty for not having a job, like my parents just think i'm lazy.....if i had something to show for the SA, atleast i wouldn't be made to feel like this.

To think i've come through 11 years of battling sa just to get told that i'm lazy and frowned upon for not having a job makes me feel terrible and pathetic. But part of my motivation to improve is so I can get out into the world and make my parents proud of me.