Anyone with severe long term SA and ocd thrown in the mix?

Foxglove

Well-known member
Yeah, I know what you mean. It seems like the people who deserve it the least are the ones out there living the good life, doing what they please, no matter who suffers from it. In this f$&?ed up society, it's all about who has the most money, who is the most attractive, who has the fanicest car, greatest job, whatever. If you are nice, have good manners, follow the rules, are considerate, you just get stomped on and shit upon. I try to teach my son to be those things, but I really question the wisdom of that. Maybe I should teach him to be rude, nasty, cruel and greedy. It seems that if you are equipped with those questionable traits, you have it easier in this world. Isn't it sad to be so cynical? Sometimes I wish I were born with one of those rose-colored glasses.

I also wonder if I was put on this earth just to suffer. Even at my advanced age of 42 I still have many unresolved issues with my parents. 10 years ago I confronted them with things they did to me in my youth and they just denied everything, told me I was sick and a liar. They said they can't remember doing any of the things I confronted them about, said they only hit/kicked me "when I deserved it". I don't know why your "parents" would think you're a loser just because of your SP. Did they have dreams of you having a marvelous career or something like that? I don't think you're a loser. You sound like a really intelligent, sensitive and nice young man.

Having a pet is always nice. I have a cat. We will be getting a dog for my son when his summer vacation starts. Maybe a dog would be good for you. Then you would be "forced" to go out, and if you meet other people with dogs maybe making conversation wouldn't be so intimidating. I'm going to try that myself when we get a dog.

I wish you all the best. Try not to let your dislike of mankind turn into a malignant cancer in your soul. If that happens, then "they" will have won.

Foxglove
 

stone

New member
i am stone from china. i am also an ocd and sa sufferer. i was only 5 years old when ocd first attacked me, and i am now 26. i am in the same condition with you but i am striving to find a way out.

i don"t know whether you know the japanese psychologist MR. morita, whose ideas of ocd is rather different from that of the westerners. he said that ocd and sa sufferers all have "a strong desire to survive and succeed" but they are hindered by " the fear of failure and death". in japan, ocd people form their own orgnization and they hold assemblies of ocd sufferers every weeks when people with that disease can chat together and nourish their social skills. how delight i would be if i was born in japan! in china there are no such ocd orgnizations. i feel lonely because people surrounding me don" t understand my ocd thoughts. do you have any ocd orgnizations in your country?

i suggest you do something you like to distract yourself from the pain of ocd. i am writting short fictions and i had already published one in a local newspaper. i love english languange, so i am working on it , with the aim that one day i can become an english-chinese translator or an english teacher in my country. so i hope you can buy a persian kitten soon and get some interesting things to do.
 
Top