im also turning 20 this year, in december, but i still feel like a teenager and that ppl expect waaaay too much of me, even tho they're not really, considering i am officially an adult now and should be much more independent. there's loads of stuff that i still need help with from my parents or older siblings, its really pathetic. i chicken out of phone calls, i cant go to the gym on my own! i have a really insensitive aunt, i once asked my bro if he would go to the gym with me and she said something like "you dont need your brother to hold your hand do you?" and that really got to me. but its true, i do in a sense need someone to hold my hand through those kinda things. i think it will be a long time before i start to feel like an adult.