Any plans for '09 ?

[Ember]

Excuse the melodrama right now but .. most mornings i get up and my first thought is, i wish i never woke up. The same thought before i go to bed.

Yet. A small part of me wishes to do certain thing's, "normal" thing's. And even if i know these thing's, no matter how little or big, may not come to pass because i can't even get up in the morning without having suicidal thoughts, i still have them.

This year, i hoped to go back to school and take up guitar or piano lessons. After basically being called a failure by a Tafe counsellor yesterday i'm already feeling a bit beat. Yet a part of me still wants it. It's sad that education is just a bonus and the main reason why i want to be back in school is so i can have something to say when people ask, 'so, what do you do?'. Oh well...

What about you ? Any "plans" this year ? I mean they can be anything. I suppose i'm just curious as to how other anxious/depressive (edit)Aussie folk try to pass their time ..

 

[dwn10w]

hey ember

somtimes I don't wana wake up coz in my dreams I am actually living d way I wana live my life

 

[freestylemonster]

dammit man I feel the exact same way! It's so hard to get up in the morning! Like what's the point??

But to answer your question I wanna get a girlfriend this year...It's a big step but I've really been doing good as far as getting over SA. I even got a girl's number last weekend AND a girl had a crush on me a while ago...so it's not impossible right??

 

[Andrew]

I will be updating my calendar.

 

[Klaus]

I need to go back to university or basically do something with my life. Yeah i'd like to make friends and do things etc but the point is i've been stagnant for too long. If something doesn't happen this year I probably won't be around to see the next. I've been really struggling the past year or two, another year like this is inconceivable.

Be selfish, refuse to kill yourself. Just to annoy everybody.

 

[obita]

This year, i hoped to go back to school and take up guitar or piano lessons.

Guitar or piano lessons are a great idea. I'd love to have some musical talent but it's not my forte. I read about someone buying a cheap second-hand guitar and learning slowly from YouTube clips and a bargain bin 'learn guitar' DVD. It's something you can slowly work on and gradually get better.

After basically being called a failure by a Tafe counsellor yesterday i'm already feeling a bit beat. Yet a part of me still wants it. It's sad that education is just a bonus and the main reason why i want to be back in school is so i can have something to say when people ask, 'so, what do you do?'. Oh well...

It's hard to ignore negative comments from people like that especially when they're in a position of some "authority". But maybe they're just the kind of people that like to pick on / put down people to make themselves feel better. I've experienced them before. I went back to uni to do something I've always wanted to do despite the fact I may not use it. Also answers the "what do you do" question too. I like to learn, and if you're learning about something that interests you it makes it easier.

What about you ? Any "plans" this year ? I mean they can be anything. I suppose i'm just curious as to how other anxious/depressive (edit)Aussie folk try to pass their time ..

Apart from trying to pass my remaining subjects, I'm trying to work on my fitness. Eating healthy, exercising etc. I'm still sticking to it after a month and I feel so much better. It's amazing. Small babysteps, but I'm happy with my progress.

I don't like setting too many goals at the start of the year as it puts to much pressure on me. I'd also like to meet new people and make friends. I'll take things as they come.

 

[I_Walk_Alone]

I'm going to do a writing course online.

Hopefully write this novel inside my head that has become like an obsession. Cant stop thinking about it! Not that its a bad thing, sure does keep the boredom at bay, which in turn keeps the depression at bay.

Like the poster above says, learning is a very constructive way to keep yourself occupied (especially if you're unemployed!), and in a way i am greatful that I have acute SA, as I feel I am much wiser now than I would have been had my life not gone down this road (as I didn't finish high school, and hung around with a pretty rough crowd).

 

[saen]

I'm going to do a writing course online.

Hopefully write this novel inside my head that has become like an obsession. Cant stop thinking about it! Not that its a bad thing, sure does keep the boredom at bay, which in turn keeps the depression at bay.

Ha, I got about 120 pages into a book I was writing - gave up about half a year ago. I might give it a shot again. Beware the curse of the writers block! Take regular breaks - that's my only piece of advice.

 

[I_Walk_Alone]

Ha, I got about 120 pages into a book I was writing - gave up about half a year ago. I might give it a shot again. Beware the curse of the writers block! Take regular breaks - that's my only piece of advice.

Oh no! You've gotta be kidding right? Seems to be a long way to get into a book before giving up.

What happened? Did you just stop feeling it? Do you think what you have so far is good enough? If the latter is so, I really hope you get back into it.

 

[saen]

Oh no! You've gotta be kidding right? Seems to be a long way to get into a book before giving up.

What happened? Did you just stop feeling it? Do you think what you have so far is good enough? If the latter is so, I really hope you get back into it.

Yeah, that initial passion I got just doesn't seem to be there anymore (I forced myself to write when I really didn't have the passion to do so - one of the worst things to do). Unless you're incredibly gifted, your first pieces of work are going to suck (I speak from experience). I gradually upped the standard of my work, and I'd say I write fairly decently today. I got a lot of feedback from this site: WritingForums.com - Writing Forums, Writing Challenges, Critiques and Help for Writers - beware, though, you have to have a thick skin to stomach their responses.

But feedback is the best thing a writers can possibly get in order for them to get better. I'm only 18, so I guess that I've still got many years in me - I've just been a bit distracted lately I guess.

 

[Celephaïs]

Goes through my head everyday.

I've gone to school, lost jobs for what I studied for, alienated my friends and have gotten worse by shutting out the outside world. My plans are to hopefully find some meds that actually work this year. If so, I'd like to get on with my life and try to be relatively normal.