tark
New member
hey all, this is my first post here after coming across the site yesterday. I've read alot of other posts and it's comforting to know i'm not alone in the way i'm feeling with this prob.
I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder back when i was 15, forcing me to leave school and be housebound for a few years. I'm now 25 and the severity of the problem has gone up and down over the years. I have held a job for the last couple of years and had the anxiety pretty much under control. Just recently it's shown up again and i've been having really self conscious thoughts about myself, such as how i appear to others, what people are thinking about me, fear of blushing...which makes me blush more easily! These syptoms have come after having my first anxiety attack at work late last year where i had to leave straight away...i have since had another one there and have not been back since. Now the fear of it happening there again is freaking me out.
As a result i have been off work for about 6 weeks now and i'm not sure if i'll be able to go back...it's really worrying me alot because if i leave this job i fear that i will never get another one as it will be too hard to go through the whole interview process and meeting new people again. I have had job interviews in the past where i have gotten anxiety attacks and gone bright deep red and am sure i missed the job because of it....it seems to put the employer off you straight away. As if they see you as being a weak person and wouldn't want you working for them.
I only really feel this way at work or any place where i feel trapped, a place i can't just walk out of if i feel anxious without drawing alot of attention to myself. Some people at work know about my problem but that in turn almost makes me more paronoid and anxious as these people are now looking at me and might be thinking, "is he having a attack now?", "is he ok working with that person?" ect, my mind and thoughts go into overdrive. It's really hard to explain but I don't want to be known as the anxious guy at work because it's not who I am! It frustrates me and i quite often get angry at myself for being this way as I feel people don't see the real me, which makes me depressed.
thanks for listening...
I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder back when i was 15, forcing me to leave school and be housebound for a few years. I'm now 25 and the severity of the problem has gone up and down over the years. I have held a job for the last couple of years and had the anxiety pretty much under control. Just recently it's shown up again and i've been having really self conscious thoughts about myself, such as how i appear to others, what people are thinking about me, fear of blushing...which makes me blush more easily! These syptoms have come after having my first anxiety attack at work late last year where i had to leave straight away...i have since had another one there and have not been back since. Now the fear of it happening there again is freaking me out.
As a result i have been off work for about 6 weeks now and i'm not sure if i'll be able to go back...it's really worrying me alot because if i leave this job i fear that i will never get another one as it will be too hard to go through the whole interview process and meeting new people again. I have had job interviews in the past where i have gotten anxiety attacks and gone bright deep red and am sure i missed the job because of it....it seems to put the employer off you straight away. As if they see you as being a weak person and wouldn't want you working for them.
I only really feel this way at work or any place where i feel trapped, a place i can't just walk out of if i feel anxious without drawing alot of attention to myself. Some people at work know about my problem but that in turn almost makes me more paronoid and anxious as these people are now looking at me and might be thinking, "is he having a attack now?", "is he ok working with that person?" ect, my mind and thoughts go into overdrive. It's really hard to explain but I don't want to be known as the anxious guy at work because it's not who I am! It frustrates me and i quite often get angry at myself for being this way as I feel people don't see the real me, which makes me depressed.
thanks for listening...
