Megthompson3
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Hi all! I was hoping that i would be able to deal with my problem myself but, I guess there's no shame in asking for help.
I'm Meg, I'm in my late twenties. I am a artist, graphic and web designer.
My problem didn't started long ago but I want to deal with it before it turns to something worse (God forbid). Anyway... About half a year ago I felt a lump on myself, of course I freaked out and thought the worst, but after seeing the doc it turned out to be nothing, the strange thing is... after that event i've turned my focused on my mental and physical health. I stopped drawing and constantly feared that something might be wrong with me mentally. Now my family has no history of mental illness of any kind, I had a normal childhood and I honestly think that it's all in my mind or sort of think that happens when you stop doin' what you like and simply... think too much. And have dealt with most of my fears except one!
In my high school years, I saw one of my close friends get a schizophrenia, although her family members may had it, and she smoked lot of weed and was in that hare-Cristina thing. I don't mean to sound offensive about the hare-Cristina, they are kinda creepy to me. Anyway... It really creeped me out and the one thing that really burned in my mind is that her personality changed. But the thing is she get much better and lives a normal life!
Till now I was normal, never had any mental problems, went to a therapist during the end of my high school time and had no problems, was happy with my life and all.
And for all this time I forgot about it till now. Now I realized how much that event hit me really, and every time my personality or mood changes out of my usual “borders”, even if it's normal or not even sudden I immediately freak out thinking that I might be getting it. And the worst thing is i've read the symptoms of schizophrenia and about it. And even though I have none of the symptoms I still freak out. Now a days i'm working to forget it and learn to love my job again but still I get spooked here and there. I really want to deal with it.
Other than that i'm just a bit depressed but that could be just a phase and it's not bad. It may not sound like something serious and it could be me over thinking it (as usual) but this fear is preventing me to change naturally and grow more mature.
Sorry if this makes little sense but i'm kinda excited and never been on such a site so...
And i'll be happy to help and give advice to others. God knows i've know tons about personal and mental problems after readin so much self-help sites, which I was told to avoid cause they can only send you in a downward spiral of fear.
I would be thankful for any helpful tips and please don't suggest me to see a therapist
I'm Meg, I'm in my late twenties. I am a artist, graphic and web designer.
My problem didn't started long ago but I want to deal with it before it turns to something worse (God forbid). Anyway... About half a year ago I felt a lump on myself, of course I freaked out and thought the worst, but after seeing the doc it turned out to be nothing, the strange thing is... after that event i've turned my focused on my mental and physical health. I stopped drawing and constantly feared that something might be wrong with me mentally. Now my family has no history of mental illness of any kind, I had a normal childhood and I honestly think that it's all in my mind or sort of think that happens when you stop doin' what you like and simply... think too much. And have dealt with most of my fears except one!
In my high school years, I saw one of my close friends get a schizophrenia, although her family members may had it, and she smoked lot of weed and was in that hare-Cristina thing. I don't mean to sound offensive about the hare-Cristina, they are kinda creepy to me. Anyway... It really creeped me out and the one thing that really burned in my mind is that her personality changed. But the thing is she get much better and lives a normal life!
Till now I was normal, never had any mental problems, went to a therapist during the end of my high school time and had no problems, was happy with my life and all.
And for all this time I forgot about it till now. Now I realized how much that event hit me really, and every time my personality or mood changes out of my usual “borders”, even if it's normal or not even sudden I immediately freak out thinking that I might be getting it. And the worst thing is i've read the symptoms of schizophrenia and about it. And even though I have none of the symptoms I still freak out. Now a days i'm working to forget it and learn to love my job again but still I get spooked here and there. I really want to deal with it.
Other than that i'm just a bit depressed but that could be just a phase and it's not bad. It may not sound like something serious and it could be me over thinking it (as usual) but this fear is preventing me to change naturally and grow more mature.
Sorry if this makes little sense but i'm kinda excited and never been on such a site so...
And i'll be happy to help and give advice to others. God knows i've know tons about personal and mental problems after readin so much self-help sites, which I was told to avoid cause they can only send you in a downward spiral of fear.
I would be thankful for any helpful tips and please don't suggest me to see a therapist