Lycanthrope
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I am a 19 year old female getting a college education in the United States. While I am enjoying the autonomy and quality of education that a university can provide, and my GPA is looking fairly favorable, I've found my social life to be rather lacking in many aspects.
The main thing is, I'm having trouble meeting new people and forming friendships. My roomate is a childhood best friend, who is still a fairly constant social contact, but who also spends a lot of time socializing with other friends outside the circle I'm really familiar with. Another childhood best friend (the third member of the "trio" of best friends I was part of in High School) is still friendly toward me, but prefers to spend time with newer friends because apparently they provide her with more stimulating conversation.
As far as relationships go, I somehow managed to get the most wonderful boyfriend I could possibly ask for. He is currently not only my romantic interest, but also my best friend. He's the one I play video games with, go out and do "for-fun" activities with (such as shopping or going to movies), and do most of my conversing with. We've been together for four years now, and lthough it hasn't been perfect (I can admittedly be difficult to deal with sometimes
) it's nice to have that one person I can hang out with and not at all worry about preserving my "image" to said person.
I AM a part of some of the extra activities on campus. For instance, I play trumpet for my university's marching band, and I'm hoping to play French Horn for the university wind ensemble. I also have started to learn to fence as a club sport. The problem with this is, however, that I am very much a loner within each of these activities. Alhough I'm not the type that usually is nominated for superlatives, I have been named the "Quietest" member of the marching band (is this something to brag about? o_o). I will also sometimes skip fencing, even though I'm in need of the practice, because I am exhausted from being around other people all day, even if I -don't- have much social contact with them.
I like to consider myself reasonably articulate in the written word, but in the spoken word I am very much the opposite. Many times, when faced with a social situation (important ones like interviews in particular!) I will "blank". I will run out of things to say before even saying a word. I will look away from whoever has addressed me and speak in very vague, very simplistic language... between the typical "um"s and "uh"s. Aside from this making me look very unintelligent to say the least, I'm also sure that my standoffishness isn't exactly inviting to other people.
The absolute worst part is, I think my social phobia -may- have cost me a place in my university's College of Design. The design school here is extremely selective with an extensive application process; most applicants don't even make it to the interview stage. I -did- manage to get an interview somehow, but when I got there, I acted as if I didn't even know what the department of art and design even -WAS-... totally humiliated myself. I can't say that I would have gotten a spot if my interview had gone well (looking at some of the other applicants, my technical skills pale in comparison), but I know that my poor performance at the interview sealed my fate, so to speak.
I am currently enrolled in First Year College (undeclared major). I am in the process of re-applying to the school of design, and I figure that now is as good a time as ever to get my act together if I'm to have a good second shot at it.
That's probably waaay too much information for an introduction post, but oh well.
The main thing is, I'm having trouble meeting new people and forming friendships. My roomate is a childhood best friend, who is still a fairly constant social contact, but who also spends a lot of time socializing with other friends outside the circle I'm really familiar with. Another childhood best friend (the third member of the "trio" of best friends I was part of in High School) is still friendly toward me, but prefers to spend time with newer friends because apparently they provide her with more stimulating conversation.
As far as relationships go, I somehow managed to get the most wonderful boyfriend I could possibly ask for. He is currently not only my romantic interest, but also my best friend. He's the one I play video games with, go out and do "for-fun" activities with (such as shopping or going to movies), and do most of my conversing with. We've been together for four years now, and lthough it hasn't been perfect (I can admittedly be difficult to deal with sometimes
) it's nice to have that one person I can hang out with and not at all worry about preserving my "image" to said person.I AM a part of some of the extra activities on campus. For instance, I play trumpet for my university's marching band, and I'm hoping to play French Horn for the university wind ensemble. I also have started to learn to fence as a club sport. The problem with this is, however, that I am very much a loner within each of these activities. Alhough I'm not the type that usually is nominated for superlatives, I have been named the "Quietest" member of the marching band (is this something to brag about? o_o). I will also sometimes skip fencing, even though I'm in need of the practice, because I am exhausted from being around other people all day, even if I -don't- have much social contact with them.
I like to consider myself reasonably articulate in the written word, but in the spoken word I am very much the opposite. Many times, when faced with a social situation (important ones like interviews in particular!) I will "blank". I will run out of things to say before even saying a word. I will look away from whoever has addressed me and speak in very vague, very simplistic language... between the typical "um"s and "uh"s. Aside from this making me look very unintelligent to say the least, I'm also sure that my standoffishness isn't exactly inviting to other people.
The absolute worst part is, I think my social phobia -may- have cost me a place in my university's College of Design. The design school here is extremely selective with an extensive application process; most applicants don't even make it to the interview stage. I -did- manage to get an interview somehow, but when I got there, I acted as if I didn't even know what the department of art and design even -WAS-... totally humiliated myself. I can't say that I would have gotten a spot if my interview had gone well (looking at some of the other applicants, my technical skills pale in comparison), but I know that my poor performance at the interview sealed my fate, so to speak.
I am currently enrolled in First Year College (undeclared major). I am in the process of re-applying to the school of design, and I figure that now is as good a time as ever to get my act together if I'm to have a good second shot at it.
That's probably waaay too much information for an introduction post, but oh well.
